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Oct 06, 2005 14:18

I want to be successful. I want better. And, I'm doing it.

I'm a 17 year old senior in high school taking night classes while working on weekends. While doing this, getting A's..something still feels missing.

Is this normal?

When I'm 80 years old I want to look back on my life and know that I've made differences.

I know theres people who have looked at me and my personality..and just thought.."Oh, she's just a stoner or a slut."

I'm detrmined to prove everyone wrong. Once I'm done with 1st responder class I start my EMT class 2nd semester.

I've never really felt proud of myself before...until now.

I want to have good character, i want to be happy, but I also want the people I love to be happy too. I really do like helping people. But I still have this weird type of emtyness about me ... like somethings missing...

i didnt know if it was because i dont know my dad...or if its because i havent seen my mom since age 14.

I'm not ashamed of my past because i learned from all of it and it made me overall a better person. My past is something I embrace...it makes me who I am and its where I came from.

i love life

im afraid to have a serious relationship with a guy because sometimes i feel like when im with him...it compinsates for the love from my parents i never had. so i just push them away. i want to know who i am before i date someone.

I dont mean this to be all cheesy and optimistic, but i would just like to say...

I'm no blaming any of my actions or my choices on my past or for having shitty parents.

I'm making the most of myself...life is so fucking amazing

www.myspace.com/sampolly

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