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california's burning down before i even got there.
i'm pretty sure i've met the love of my life in a way... but not really probably.
it's just one of those things where i see everything just as i wish it were. and i can't help but pray that i'm right. I don't know. it's werid. i'm leaving in less than two weeks. and i don't ever want to come back. even if i hate it there i know it can't possibly be worse than here. and at least there i'll be afforded a little more oppurtunity. at least there will be a chance that i could wind up finding what i want. i'm goin gcrazy here. it's soooo close. and i can't even think straight at this point. between getting everything together, saying goodbye to so many different people, some in different ways. letting go of the little betrayal i'm sorry to say seems to have spelled the end of one specific friendship i never saw ending so soon or for such reasons. but whatever happens here before i leave is irrelevant because i iknow that i'll have a fresh start once i'm there. i can start all over again and be a brand new person. even if all my demons follow me out there, at least i'll be happy knowing that i've done something i said i was going to.
i'm pretty sure i've met the love of my life in a way... but not really probably.
it's just one of those things where i see everything just as i wish it were. and i can't help but pray that i'm right. I don't know. it's werid. i'm leaving in less than two weeks. and i don't ever want to come back. even if i hate it there i know it can't possibly be worse than here. and at least there i'll be afforded a little more oppurtunity. at least there will be a chance that i could wind up finding what i want. i'm goin gcrazy here. it's soooo close. and i can't even think straight at this point. between getting everything together, saying goodbye to so many different people, some in different ways. letting go of the little betrayal i'm sorry to say seems to have spelled the end of one specific friendship i never saw ending so soon or for such reasons. but whatever happens here before i leave is irrelevant because i iknow that i'll have a fresh start once i'm there. i can start all over again and be a brand new person. even if all my demons follow me out there, at least i'll be happy knowing that i've done something i said i was going to.