Certainty?

[riseagainst93]

God, I hate change.
Good or bad, it's hard.
Hard for me to grasp.
I'm looking forward to school.
But I'm nervous.
Last year, there was a certainty.
It was a big change, lots of change.
But there was one certainty.
Her.
This time, no certainty.
I have nothing to work off of.
Nothing to work for.
I'll live. I know it'll be fine.
But the change is...
Unsettling.
I wish there was a certainty.
Do I wish there was her?
No.
No, that can't happen.
And I don't want it to.
But I want a certainty.
And I don't want change.
What do I want?
I want time to end.
I want it to pause.
I want to go back.
Stop the world,
I want to get off.