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I honestly should be writing a paper right now but yeah..haha
So there's this one song, Tisbury Lane by Mae. This song, I feel, describes my semester:
She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do
Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
Yeah
She lives on Tisbury Lane
For me, this song has been my semester here at school. I'm part of a religious group at my college and I'm new on the leadership team. THere has been a lot of tension lately in the group and a lot of the blame goes to leadership. A lot of the time, they just criticize us over and over again and don't see the accomplishments or the bigger picture. We have no support from out "core" members and it's really upsetting. This song really hits hard for me...
"She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see"
---It's like as soon as I start my day, I dive right into leadership work. It doenst matter if there is a meeting coming up, i jsut have leadership work. I'm a very "I have to do it" kind of person, meaning I dont trust people to get things done or I doubt that people will get things done so i always have a back up plan (last three lines). And when things don't go right, people don't realize that it was my doing because no else has done anything to help the situation (including my co-leaders).
"If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?"
---At one point when there was nothing but criticism, i was advised by many past leaders not to let it get to me and to not think about it. That was so hard to do because it was my friends that were attacking me and it was like bullets just being shot at me over and over again. and even more so, i wanted to explain to them why i thought that their views were skewed and they were thinking one-sided and how I was feeling but I wasnt given the chance and all i did was pray about it over and over again. All people that were siding with me were praying for me and God knows that I was going through and what I wanted to do. And God even knew that I was really controlling my emotions even though I felt like crying day in and day out. And it felt like every move I made for the group, they were watching but, again, all they could do was recognize all the mistakes that I did. And there were so many attacks on me that just came unexpected that left me in tears. And every time I thought something was resolved, it wasnt and it became another attack.
"Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for"
---i basically prayed for an eternity for reconciliation within the group and just wondering if things could go back to a loving community. On my part, i knew that i made mistakes and that i could admit to them but at the same time i wanted them to admit their mistakes too. And I have a hard time letting go of things. I am one of those people that remember the bad too, so it was a lot for me to work on too. basically, it needed a miracle to get things back on track.
"No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others"
---No one really did know how i felt, honestly. At one point, i gave an ultimatum to my leaders and I felt guilty doing it but i was going to stand by it because it's what i felt i had to do. i avoided them all. I avoided them when they came by my apartment, i avoided them online, i avoided calls. i just basically shut them out of my life for a bit because i couldnt handle it anymore.
"Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need"
---A lot throughout the semester i wanted to leave leadership because one of the biggest issues that we deal with is leading shouldnt be a duty but a desire and i felt that the majority of the time it was a duty and i couldnt fulfill the requirements. THen it came to the point that all the drama broke loose that I had this DESIRE in me that defended my co-leaders because i felt they were doing the right thing and to voice why God has placed me on leadership. I honestly didnt know before why i was but I think i have somewhat of an understand now. And Jesus did die for my sins. He died for all the bad that i have done and all the people that i had hurt but he has strengthened me to defend God's group and how we are not focusing on God in this group but the "fun" or lack thereof.
"Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for"
---
So there's this one song, Tisbury Lane by Mae. This song, I feel, describes my semester:
She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do
Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
Yeah
She lives on Tisbury Lane
For me, this song has been my semester here at school. I'm part of a religious group at my college and I'm new on the leadership team. THere has been a lot of tension lately in the group and a lot of the blame goes to leadership. A lot of the time, they just criticize us over and over again and don't see the accomplishments or the bigger picture. We have no support from out "core" members and it's really upsetting. This song really hits hard for me...
"She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see"
---It's like as soon as I start my day, I dive right into leadership work. It doenst matter if there is a meeting coming up, i jsut have leadership work. I'm a very "I have to do it" kind of person, meaning I dont trust people to get things done or I doubt that people will get things done so i always have a back up plan (last three lines). And when things don't go right, people don't realize that it was my doing because no else has done anything to help the situation (including my co-leaders).
"If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?"
---At one point when there was nothing but criticism, i was advised by many past leaders not to let it get to me and to not think about it. That was so hard to do because it was my friends that were attacking me and it was like bullets just being shot at me over and over again. and even more so, i wanted to explain to them why i thought that their views were skewed and they were thinking one-sided and how I was feeling but I wasnt given the chance and all i did was pray about it over and over again. All people that were siding with me were praying for me and God knows that I was going through and what I wanted to do. And God even knew that I was really controlling my emotions even though I felt like crying day in and day out. And it felt like every move I made for the group, they were watching but, again, all they could do was recognize all the mistakes that I did. And there were so many attacks on me that just came unexpected that left me in tears. And every time I thought something was resolved, it wasnt and it became another attack.
"Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for"
---i basically prayed for an eternity for reconciliation within the group and just wondering if things could go back to a loving community. On my part, i knew that i made mistakes and that i could admit to them but at the same time i wanted them to admit their mistakes too. And I have a hard time letting go of things. I am one of those people that remember the bad too, so it was a lot for me to work on too. basically, it needed a miracle to get things back on track.
"No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others"
---No one really did know how i felt, honestly. At one point, i gave an ultimatum to my leaders and I felt guilty doing it but i was going to stand by it because it's what i felt i had to do. i avoided them all. I avoided them when they came by my apartment, i avoided them online, i avoided calls. i just basically shut them out of my life for a bit because i couldnt handle it anymore.
"Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need"
---A lot throughout the semester i wanted to leave leadership because one of the biggest issues that we deal with is leading shouldnt be a duty but a desire and i felt that the majority of the time it was a duty and i couldnt fulfill the requirements. THen it came to the point that all the drama broke loose that I had this DESIRE in me that defended my co-leaders because i felt they were doing the right thing and to voice why God has placed me on leadership. I honestly didnt know before why i was but I think i have somewhat of an understand now. And Jesus did die for my sins. He died for all the bad that i have done and all the people that i had hurt but he has strengthened me to defend God's group and how we are not focusing on God in this group but the "fun" or lack thereof.
"Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for"
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