such an eventful day...
Your Friday Horoscope, michelle!
Speking clearly about your objectives might be necessary, but do not be surprised if people get the wrong impression. You could leave the final meaning of what you say to be interpreted or explained later, but events might be moving too fast to wait for tomorrow.
it's always right, so strange...
alrighty then. um well i recommitted last wendsday...(to god) and i went to a bible thingy or w/e and i was praying and this guy started praying with me and he was speaking in tounges...and he prophecied over me. and he said that god was filling my soul with his wine and that i was going to make it. yea, then he left and the pastor of the church came up and was like "god is telling me that i need to pray with you" so he did and then HE started prophiecing over me and he compared me life right now to me being a tiny boat in a hurricane and there was a lifeboat on the way...(my friends) and they were going to help. and i needed to grab on. and he said that i was NOT going to die. i'm guessing that is when the end of the world comes....which i bielieve is soon. but yea so that was awesome. but that's not it. here comes the bad stuff....which there is plenty of. i was expecting trials and tribulations to prove my faith, but hoy crap did it have to be so hard? meagen ....girl that keeps hurting me.....(jenni's ex) and this girl we'll say "k" and "s" have been "up to things" meagen apparently recommitted 2 weeks ago...it lasted for about 1 day. recommitting your life is such a BIG thing. and it meant NOTHING! to her. it's such a big step and she lied to so many people that love her when she said that prayer to god. well anyway she's gay again...figures. BUT! there's more, of course. her 2 best friends are gay with each other also.....which makes things SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much harder. her 2 best friends "k" and "s" are totally wraped around the devil. and they just don't understand. "k" is completely gone, she's into drugs and drinking and all that crap and still comes to church and "prays" i'm pretty sure she's a non-bieliever, but there you go, just more lies. and "s" was heading on the right path for a while but she got sucked in. did i mention the fact that they wern't gay 2 months ago? hmm i bet meagen pulled them in. another reason why i happen to not be on such good tearms w/meagen...while i was dating girls i went out with jenni, 2 weeks after we broke up meagen decides to date her :-|....and at that time we were supposed best friends. such BULLSHIT! oh and let me say that she went out with aj the guy that i'm going to date (whole nother story) and she used him, just as a cover up before she came out. she repeatedly broke up with him just to show that she had power. but the real ice breaker would have to be a girl we'll call "sa" last year i happen to have a huge fing crush on her (and she was straight.....) and somehow i got up the nerve to ask her if she was gay. and she said no and i thought that we would be cool and everything afterwards. but no.......things got wierd...we stopped talking and she started bashing me and calling me all kinds of names and stuff and making fun of "how cool she is since a gay girl wanted her" and she still did it like months after it happened. but anyway last week at the football game meagen came up to talk to me and "sa" happened to be with her and she smirked at me...like haha look what i did. and yea.....so it made me wonder.....meagen-gay "sa"-straight . so today i was walking to band and wendy was like dude i think meagen and "sa" are going out...i'm like wtf that's impossible she's straight. but wendy said that meagen had mentioned "sa" as her girlfriend...like hey i gtg talk to my girlfriend...i thought it was like a friend that was a girl but i was wrong. i wasen't completely sure if they were dating at that time. but i told my friend mess who is involved in all of this mess too. this big mess concists of me, megg, meagen, "s", "k", and it now includes "sa" which is what we did NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT need! so i went to the band room and told megg and i swear we both almost started crying. oh i forgot to mention that rightbefore hand i saw meagen walking with "s" and i'm like hey i need to talk to you and she goes ok and keeps walking...wtf? she did it on tuesday too. grr! ok so that was really crappy to hear about another person to be in this. it's soo much to deal with right now b/c it involves emotions now. me and megg care WAY to much about these girls and we don't want satan to win. so it hurts when we find out bad news. so during study hall we sat outside and basically vented and said how much more stressing it would be if "sa" got involved.
skipping ahead about 4 hours......now at the football game. i look up in the stands and gee it's "s" and "k" right beside each other and meagen and "sa" right beside each other. just the thought of satan getting in all of those girls is so much to deal with but to have them fight me is so much more. at the end of the day me and megg were going to talk to meagen and tell her she needs to get her crap together but woulkdn't you know it the one day we need her, she didn't go to her locker b/c she was to busy at "sa's" locker. so yea the game went on and i glanced up at them occasionally to see meagen giving me a nasty look or to see "sa" smirking at me.
2nd quarter i look up at meagen and "sa" .....i stopped breathing....i stoped living........they were holding hands. holding hands. confirmation of relationship........another person drug into the situation....so much more harder.....more lies.....so much more. i didn't know what to do. i just stood there staring at the interlocked finger in a mass if people cheering. my eyes filled with tears and i yelled for megg. she didn't know what to do either....so we just stood there. eventually i sat down and dried my eyes. i care too much and there's nothing i can do but fight for them. at halftime they left and went to "k" house....................................
i went and got coach...of course, the saver of my problems. i told her that "s" was now involved. i can't believe that meagen would bring another peroson in this....a "straight" girl. the girl that i was totally obsessed with. nicole couldn't believe it. o i told her to just watch for them but they never came back..... now she knows that they've all been lying. i just don't know what to do...i'm so stressed our right now. and to make matters even worse aj has to have surgery. (aj=guy that i like/my ex/meagen's ex) he has an inverted chest, and it's growing so far inthat it's causing breathing problems. to the doctors have to break his rib cage straighten the bones and connect it again w/rods. :-\....i'm scared. that also means that he can't run cross country anymore......and that he can't be a marine. something bout scars blah blah...... but he's always wanted to be a marine. he's enrolled....it's his life dream. and now he can't go. BUT to end the story i did talk to him finally tonight after getting scared too many times and i said that after i get through this whle meagen blah blah blah deal and after i have a firm relationship with god maybe we could go out again. and he said yes, so after everything we're going to try it again. but yea it's really late so it's time to sleep my problems away...
Speking clearly about your objectives might be necessary, but do not be surprised if people get the wrong impression. You could leave the final meaning of what you say to be interpreted or explained later, but events might be moving too fast to wait for tomorrow.
it's always right, so strange...
alrighty then. um well i recommitted last wendsday...(to god) and i went to a bible thingy or w/e and i was praying and this guy started praying with me and he was speaking in tounges...and he prophecied over me. and he said that god was filling my soul with his wine and that i was going to make it. yea, then he left and the pastor of the church came up and was like "god is telling me that i need to pray with you" so he did and then HE started prophiecing over me and he compared me life right now to me being a tiny boat in a hurricane and there was a lifeboat on the way...(my friends) and they were going to help. and i needed to grab on. and he said that i was NOT going to die. i'm guessing that is when the end of the world comes....which i bielieve is soon. but yea so that was awesome. but that's not it. here comes the bad stuff....which there is plenty of. i was expecting trials and tribulations to prove my faith, but hoy crap did it have to be so hard? meagen ....girl that keeps hurting me.....(jenni's ex) and this girl we'll say "k" and "s" have been "up to things" meagen apparently recommitted 2 weeks ago...it lasted for about 1 day. recommitting your life is such a BIG thing. and it meant NOTHING! to her. it's such a big step and she lied to so many people that love her when she said that prayer to god. well anyway she's gay again...figures. BUT! there's more, of course. her 2 best friends are gay with each other also.....which makes things SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much harder. her 2 best friends "k" and "s" are totally wraped around the devil. and they just don't understand. "k" is completely gone, she's into drugs and drinking and all that crap and still comes to church and "prays" i'm pretty sure she's a non-bieliever, but there you go, just more lies. and "s" was heading on the right path for a while but she got sucked in. did i mention the fact that they wern't gay 2 months ago? hmm i bet meagen pulled them in. another reason why i happen to not be on such good tearms w/meagen...while i was dating girls i went out with jenni, 2 weeks after we broke up meagen decides to date her :-|....and at that time we were supposed best friends. such BULLSHIT! oh and let me say that she went out with aj the guy that i'm going to date (whole nother story) and she used him, just as a cover up before she came out. she repeatedly broke up with him just to show that she had power. but the real ice breaker would have to be a girl we'll call "sa" last year i happen to have a huge fing crush on her (and she was straight.....) and somehow i got up the nerve to ask her if she was gay. and she said no and i thought that we would be cool and everything afterwards. but no.......things got wierd...we stopped talking and she started bashing me and calling me all kinds of names and stuff and making fun of "how cool she is since a gay girl wanted her" and she still did it like months after it happened. but anyway last week at the football game meagen came up to talk to me and "sa" happened to be with her and she smirked at me...like haha look what i did. and yea.....so it made me wonder.....meagen-gay "sa"-straight . so today i was walking to band and wendy was like dude i think meagen and "sa" are going out...i'm like wtf that's impossible she's straight. but wendy said that meagen had mentioned "sa" as her girlfriend...like hey i gtg talk to my girlfriend...i thought it was like a friend that was a girl but i was wrong. i wasen't completely sure if they were dating at that time. but i told my friend mess who is involved in all of this mess too. this big mess concists of me, megg, meagen, "s", "k", and it now includes "sa" which is what we did NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT need! so i went to the band room and told megg and i swear we both almost started crying. oh i forgot to mention that rightbefore hand i saw meagen walking with "s" and i'm like hey i need to talk to you and she goes ok and keeps walking...wtf? she did it on tuesday too. grr! ok so that was really crappy to hear about another person to be in this. it's soo much to deal with right now b/c it involves emotions now. me and megg care WAY to much about these girls and we don't want satan to win. so it hurts when we find out bad news. so during study hall we sat outside and basically vented and said how much more stressing it would be if "sa" got involved.
skipping ahead about 4 hours......now at the football game. i look up in the stands and gee it's "s" and "k" right beside each other and meagen and "sa" right beside each other. just the thought of satan getting in all of those girls is so much to deal with but to have them fight me is so much more. at the end of the day me and megg were going to talk to meagen and tell her she needs to get her crap together but woulkdn't you know it the one day we need her, she didn't go to her locker b/c she was to busy at "sa's" locker. so yea the game went on and i glanced up at them occasionally to see meagen giving me a nasty look or to see "sa" smirking at me.
2nd quarter i look up at meagen and "sa" .....i stopped breathing....i stoped living........they were holding hands. holding hands. confirmation of relationship........another person drug into the situation....so much more harder.....more lies.....so much more. i didn't know what to do. i just stood there staring at the interlocked finger in a mass if people cheering. my eyes filled with tears and i yelled for megg. she didn't know what to do either....so we just stood there. eventually i sat down and dried my eyes. i care too much and there's nothing i can do but fight for them. at halftime they left and went to "k" house....................................
i went and got coach...of course, the saver of my problems. i told her that "s" was now involved. i can't believe that meagen would bring another peroson in this....a "straight" girl. the girl that i was totally obsessed with. nicole couldn't believe it. o i told her to just watch for them but they never came back..... now she knows that they've all been lying. i just don't know what to do...i'm so stressed our right now. and to make matters even worse aj has to have surgery. (aj=guy that i like/my ex/meagen's ex) he has an inverted chest, and it's growing so far inthat it's causing breathing problems. to the doctors have to break his rib cage straighten the bones and connect it again w/rods. :-\....i'm scared. that also means that he can't run cross country anymore......and that he can't be a marine. something bout scars blah blah...... but he's always wanted to be a marine. he's enrolled....it's his life dream. and now he can't go. BUT to end the story i did talk to him finally tonight after getting scared too many times and i said that after i get through this whle meagen blah blah blah deal and after i have a firm relationship with god maybe we could go out again. and he said yes, so after everything we're going to try it again. but yea it's really late so it's time to sleep my problems away...