:I really want to put stickers on turtles:
I went and re read alot of old entries today. It was really interesting to me to see how I kept saying I would always love brad, and I'm not sure about this new guy.
Now Brad is an afterthought, and my heart is aching for this "other guy"
It is relieving in a way to see how devastated I was then, and how happy james made me. I realize that in a way, the way I'm talking about John now, is the way I was talking about James then. I have no real expectation that this thing with John will surpass anything but a friendly flirtation, or ever even come close to comparing to what I felt for James.
I suppose its funny how life works.
Brad is the one who couldn't get over our break up, and I'm fine
James has ending things, for whatever the reason may really be.
I don't feel so fine now, but I know I will someday.
James taught me that lesson, that when you least expected someone to come along, or even thought that they never could again, they do.
I didn't even recognize it at first. Looking at the dates from my entries, it took James a couple months for me to really begin viewing him as more than a friend.
Its funny how life works.
But don't get me wrong, I am still very sad... the idea of never again with him is heartbreaking. I almost wish for some hope.
Now Brad is an afterthought, and my heart is aching for this "other guy"
It is relieving in a way to see how devastated I was then, and how happy james made me. I realize that in a way, the way I'm talking about John now, is the way I was talking about James then. I have no real expectation that this thing with John will surpass anything but a friendly flirtation, or ever even come close to comparing to what I felt for James.
I suppose its funny how life works.
Brad is the one who couldn't get over our break up, and I'm fine
James has ending things, for whatever the reason may really be.
I don't feel so fine now, but I know I will someday.
James taught me that lesson, that when you least expected someone to come along, or even thought that they never could again, they do.
I didn't even recognize it at first. Looking at the dates from my entries, it took James a couple months for me to really begin viewing him as more than a friend.
Its funny how life works.
But don't get me wrong, I am still very sad... the idea of never again with him is heartbreaking. I almost wish for some hope.