Long time no blog
I haven't written in ages, but since I got my own computer I'll probably start writing more.
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I think I need help. I don't know with what. But something is lacking in my life. Shockingly I'm confused about my situation with Brad, but that doesn't even deserve to be talked about anymore.
I feel like I can see people dislike me more and more. I feel helpless to stop it to. For some reason I don't posses the capability to shut up. Not in class, not ever. I have tried so many times to change, but its not easy. I'll think of something and before I even realize I said it, its already out there. I guess I like making people laugh, even though I rarely do, I still always try. I must seem pretty desperate most of the time. Its sad.
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My weekend was really uneventfull. On Friday I watched Charlie and The Chocolate Factory at Brads. Later that night we were hanging out and I didn't feel very good, so I went home and watched Desperate Housewives while he went to his friends. I called him to see what was going on and just say hi, cause i was home alone, bored and sick. We talked for a couple minutes and he hung up. I called him back to see if he wanted to come over with drew later that night, and he rejected my call. No big details, but it gotreally ugly, and we got into a fight. Saturday night, we broke up, becuase he was ashamed of how he treated me, and I deserve better. Which I do. so damn. fun? We used to break up alot, but lately we've done really good untill this. I dont know. I just know I need to find some new friends, that I can have fun with and rely on, and will support me. Its not easy to do at this point in high school, because everyone already has all of their friends.
well. I have successfully put off writing my Huck Finn paper for about...10 minutes, so I guess i had better finish it.
p.s- I have gone to the gym 5 times this week!!
ignore:
I think I need help. I don't know with what. But something is lacking in my life. Shockingly I'm confused about my situation with Brad, but that doesn't even deserve to be talked about anymore.
I feel like I can see people dislike me more and more. I feel helpless to stop it to. For some reason I don't posses the capability to shut up. Not in class, not ever. I have tried so many times to change, but its not easy. I'll think of something and before I even realize I said it, its already out there. I guess I like making people laugh, even though I rarely do, I still always try. I must seem pretty desperate most of the time. Its sad.
read:
My weekend was really uneventfull. On Friday I watched Charlie and The Chocolate Factory at Brads. Later that night we were hanging out and I didn't feel very good, so I went home and watched Desperate Housewives while he went to his friends. I called him to see what was going on and just say hi, cause i was home alone, bored and sick. We talked for a couple minutes and he hung up. I called him back to see if he wanted to come over with drew later that night, and he rejected my call. No big details, but it gotreally ugly, and we got into a fight. Saturday night, we broke up, becuase he was ashamed of how he treated me, and I deserve better. Which I do. so damn. fun? We used to break up alot, but lately we've done really good untill this. I dont know. I just know I need to find some new friends, that I can have fun with and rely on, and will support me. Its not easy to do at this point in high school, because everyone already has all of their friends.
well. I have successfully put off writing my Huck Finn paper for about...10 minutes, so I guess i had better finish it.
p.s- I have gone to the gym 5 times this week!!