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life is funny.
let's imagine for five seconds you're a kid and you see a toy you really want to play with. you're told that you can play with the toy for five minutes but after that never touch it again. you decide to do it because the toy is that special. you put the toy down for a little bit b/c someone gets you a legitimate toy, one that you can keep and love forever. at first you forget the first toy. but it soon grabs your attention so you start to play with it again even though your five minutes is way up. snap back to reality. you've out grown toys and you shouldn't have acted so selfish. the second toy was better and you nearly got it taken away. don't let the illusion of something being out of reach take you in. let it be and keep your thoughts of how wonderful it would be to yourself. dreams belong in your sleep, not in real life.
anyway, i'm happy. i'm finally fucking happy. my life is really fucked up right now, but i'm happy. all because this guy can't imagine a day without me. i'm scared. but i like it. keeps me in line. i don't want to lose him. i almost did. life's too short for second guessing, play your gut.
let's imagine for five seconds you're a kid and you see a toy you really want to play with. you're told that you can play with the toy for five minutes but after that never touch it again. you decide to do it because the toy is that special. you put the toy down for a little bit b/c someone gets you a legitimate toy, one that you can keep and love forever. at first you forget the first toy. but it soon grabs your attention so you start to play with it again even though your five minutes is way up. snap back to reality. you've out grown toys and you shouldn't have acted so selfish. the second toy was better and you nearly got it taken away. don't let the illusion of something being out of reach take you in. let it be and keep your thoughts of how wonderful it would be to yourself. dreams belong in your sleep, not in real life.
anyway, i'm happy. i'm finally fucking happy. my life is really fucked up right now, but i'm happy. all because this guy can't imagine a day without me. i'm scared. but i like it. keeps me in line. i don't want to lose him. i almost did. life's too short for second guessing, play your gut.