And the walls come tumbling down
The weekend pretty much sucked, seeing that I went to get my paycheck and Jordan tells me that Josh had commited suicide. How am I suppose to react to that? I was in shock. I didn't know what to do or say...I was pretty much torn up inside SATURDAY ON. I went to church and I couldn't even sing the songs. I kept on thinking about Josh and all the good times we had at work. I left the service and saw my dad and bawled in his arms. I couldn't control anything. I remember how he always had my back; whether it was me almost falling from trying to get coolers or by making sure I was safe and sound after being guilt tripped into dancing with the guys. I remember karaoke parties and dancing behind the buffets when no one was looking. Playing hacky sack in the late hours of the night. I don't know why he did it. Jordan didn't even know why. I am confused. I hate knowing that I might have been able to do something. It is going to suck to go back to work and not see him.
Please keep this in your prayers...
PS: Sorry for those I didn't tell...I didn't know how to really bring it up. Everytime I was about to, it just seemed like a bad time. Plus I didn't feel like crying for the 20th time.
Please keep this in your prayers...
PS: Sorry for those I didn't tell...I didn't know how to really bring it up. Everytime I was about to, it just seemed like a bad time. Plus I didn't feel like crying for the 20th time.