sooner or later you're gonna wish you had me
I think I might like the quiet nights of this empy life
Cause Someday maybe somebody will love me like I need
And someday I won't have to prove cause somebody will see all my worth
But until then I'll do just fine on my own with my cigarettes and this old dirt road
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I've been busy as of late. Or rather, I've been making myself busy.
Wake up. Go to work. Go out until 1am or so with friends. Go home and sleep. Rinse and repeat.
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There's this guy at work, Matt. I'm not interested in him as far as ~THAT WAY~ is concerned. But last night, I was helping him in his area at work, and we basically talked for two hours. And I was just floored that a guy could be that interested and that thoughtful to another girl and her feelings.
He's really the first person to just flat out ask me what was wrong and how I was, and wanted to hear about everything. And he was... sad about how things happened for me. I don't know.
He was saying that we were new friends (because he's the ex and current roommate of a good friend of mine), but that I was so nice (probably too nice) and that I deserved better and he was so sorry that I pretty much got fucked over.
I was truly touched.
Because I've been spending all my time with Mike, basically. Because his girlfriend just dumped him because she's a crazy bitch and she treated him like shit. And he adores my friend Alicia. Which is another story, but it's complicated and he wants to be with her but she's moving to San Diego. But anyhow, when we hang out, when we start to talk about being lonely and sad, it basically becomes about him. And that's fine. He's a guy and I don't expect interest in my own feelings.
But then there goes Matt being quite lovely about it all.
It was just really nice to have someone here (because stephsquared is always there for me and my venting needs, rest assured) seem to give a damn. Genuinely.
Krissy just says "Keep your chin up," and doesn't talk about it. Alicia says "Stop being sad," and leaves it at that. And it feels pretty underwhelming to be honest.
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I have no idea what I'm going to do at the end of the this week.
What the fuck will I do for a whole week? I texted Mike and told him that we need to get together pretty much every night. We have a pity party planned for the two of us with drinks and pizza and movies devoid of any human emotion (blowing shit up).
Maybe I'll go to Bangor for a day or two. See my brother and my nieces. My mom will probably flip and find reasons for me not to go. :\
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I really want Michelle Branch's new CD to come out. I've been waiting almost a year now.
Cause Someday maybe somebody will love me like I need
And someday I won't have to prove cause somebody will see all my worth
But until then I'll do just fine on my own with my cigarettes and this old dirt road
---
I've been busy as of late. Or rather, I've been making myself busy.
Wake up. Go to work. Go out until 1am or so with friends. Go home and sleep. Rinse and repeat.
---
There's this guy at work, Matt. I'm not interested in him as far as ~THAT WAY~ is concerned. But last night, I was helping him in his area at work, and we basically talked for two hours. And I was just floored that a guy could be that interested and that thoughtful to another girl and her feelings.
He's really the first person to just flat out ask me what was wrong and how I was, and wanted to hear about everything. And he was... sad about how things happened for me. I don't know.
He was saying that we were new friends (because he's the ex and current roommate of a good friend of mine), but that I was so nice (probably too nice) and that I deserved better and he was so sorry that I pretty much got fucked over.
I was truly touched.
Because I've been spending all my time with Mike, basically. Because his girlfriend just dumped him because she's a crazy bitch and she treated him like shit. And he adores my friend Alicia. Which is another story, but it's complicated and he wants to be with her but she's moving to San Diego. But anyhow, when we hang out, when we start to talk about being lonely and sad, it basically becomes about him. And that's fine. He's a guy and I don't expect interest in my own feelings.
But then there goes Matt being quite lovely about it all.
It was just really nice to have someone here (because stephsquared is always there for me and my venting needs, rest assured) seem to give a damn. Genuinely.
Krissy just says "Keep your chin up," and doesn't talk about it. Alicia says "Stop being sad," and leaves it at that. And it feels pretty underwhelming to be honest.
---
I have no idea what I'm going to do at the end of the this week.
What the fuck will I do for a whole week? I texted Mike and told him that we need to get together pretty much every night. We have a pity party planned for the two of us with drinks and pizza and movies devoid of any human emotion (blowing shit up).
Maybe I'll go to Bangor for a day or two. See my brother and my nieces. My mom will probably flip and find reasons for me not to go. :\
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I really want Michelle Branch's new CD to come out. I've been waiting almost a year now.