I CAN'T keep questioning her!
We have talked about it until we are both blue in the face. I just am so brusied from past girls, I can't figure out how to stop being jealous and how to trust her. She keeps saying she won't give up on me but we have trust and attention talks at least once a week and I know it drives her nuts and I know one day she is gonna have enough. I just have to figure out how to trust her!
She has done NOTHING to make me not trust her. But yet I get so upset when she talks to another girl or an ex. I have no interest in controlling who she talks to or hangs out with, there are just certain people that really scare me, then again I think anyone would scare me. Just a couple really make me nervous because she already has a connection with them.
I'm scared sick to think about loosing her to someone yet I'm even more scared of pushing her away myself.
I'm scared that my fears are completely taking over me and she is gonna start loosing who I really am and only see this untrusting annoying lil bore.
She can say again and again that she isn't going to give up on me but again I've heard it from other people and we all know where that got me.
I just have nothing in me but somehow I HAVE TO find every ounce that maybe left, for her. The only way ill ever learn to trust again is to have someone truley show me what trust means.
I need her to stop blamming herself. I need her to understand when I say " its okay", that my head trying to convice my heart of that.
I have to somehow how get my head to settle down and relax and maybe then my heart will follow. I'm driving myself crazy and inturn I know it affects her.
She deserves to be happy and to be treated right and that inclides having a girlfriend that trust and loves her completely.
I promise you I'm trying the hardest I can! I don't want you to have to tell me what your doing or who your with I just want to know what your thinking. I know you have said you hate it when I question you but fact is that these questions are going through my head and when they aren't answered I feel so far away and lost. But its my job now to ignore the questions and work through them. I just hope you will let your gaurd down and know that I AM doing everything I can to make the ghost of my past go away.your worth everything to me. I'm completely content with everything we are, I just need reassurance that you are.
I DO love you and I know I say it too much but my loves all I have to give completely and honestly.
She has done NOTHING to make me not trust her. But yet I get so upset when she talks to another girl or an ex. I have no interest in controlling who she talks to or hangs out with, there are just certain people that really scare me, then again I think anyone would scare me. Just a couple really make me nervous because she already has a connection with them.
I'm scared sick to think about loosing her to someone yet I'm even more scared of pushing her away myself.
I'm scared that my fears are completely taking over me and she is gonna start loosing who I really am and only see this untrusting annoying lil bore.
She can say again and again that she isn't going to give up on me but again I've heard it from other people and we all know where that got me.
I just have nothing in me but somehow I HAVE TO find every ounce that maybe left, for her. The only way ill ever learn to trust again is to have someone truley show me what trust means.
I need her to stop blamming herself. I need her to understand when I say " its okay", that my head trying to convice my heart of that.
I have to somehow how get my head to settle down and relax and maybe then my heart will follow. I'm driving myself crazy and inturn I know it affects her.
She deserves to be happy and to be treated right and that inclides having a girlfriend that trust and loves her completely.
I promise you I'm trying the hardest I can! I don't want you to have to tell me what your doing or who your with I just want to know what your thinking. I know you have said you hate it when I question you but fact is that these questions are going through my head and when they aren't answered I feel so far away and lost. But its my job now to ignore the questions and work through them. I just hope you will let your gaurd down and know that I AM doing everything I can to make the ghost of my past go away.your worth everything to me. I'm completely content with everything we are, I just need reassurance that you are.
I DO love you and I know I say it too much but my loves all I have to give completely and honestly.