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i feel like i'm in a room that was once completely filled with people that i care very deeply for, its walls decorated with familiarity, stability, consistency and plans.
this is not to say that all the people i love are gone, but their numbers are dwindling. i'm still very lucky to have kevin, cohen, natchan and the band. as well as bellarmine kids that i'd still like to see. as for the walls, they're quite bare now.
this has been a heavy week.
i saw caroline off on sunday night / monday morning. got to her house at about 6:30pm and just chilled, helped her pack a little. meghan gavin came over which was very nice. she's a lovely girl. then towey came over. it was good to see him, but it did add another dynamic to hanging out due to his and caroline's past. we all watched two episodes of grey's anatomy until meghan had to leave, at which point things got a bit strange. it was an unspoken thing, but sean and i really both wanted to be the last one to leave, to have the opportunity to have one on one with caroline. i ended up outlasting AKA staying until 5am. it was good to just be able to talk with caroline about what's happening in the future and lay with each other and let each other know how important the other is. to chicago she went.
had to say goodbye to morgan last night. it wasn't at all like i thought it'd be. we met at bert's around 10:45 and hung out with kev and cohen for a bit until they left. from there we sat inside and uploaded music onto morgan's laptop. i hooked her up with a lot of tribe and whatnot, just the core stuff because we didn't have a lot of time. we called it a night at 12:45 because i had to be home by one. the goodbye part didn't seem like anything because i'm about to be in spokane on monday for a funeral. i plan on visiting GU kids. the drive home was what got me, however. she has been a very VERY important part of my life, namely in my senior year. we were always on the same page, always wanted to see each other and talk, always knew that if we couldn't see each other now we would no doubt make time later. dang.
i'm missing jackson, jono, spence, george and yi a whole lot too. fircrest / tacoma / casinos got considerably less fun when they left.
i'm realizing i'll have to do this just about every year. cool...? nope.
that girl hasn't called, texted, or anything since she's been at school. i don't know if it should, but it hurts a lot. weak stuff, man.
THANK GOODNESS for the internet, the phone, coffee.
i'd like everybody to be here, or to be at college. none of this in between business.
this is not to say that all the people i love are gone, but their numbers are dwindling. i'm still very lucky to have kevin, cohen, natchan and the band. as well as bellarmine kids that i'd still like to see. as for the walls, they're quite bare now.
this has been a heavy week.
i saw caroline off on sunday night / monday morning. got to her house at about 6:30pm and just chilled, helped her pack a little. meghan gavin came over which was very nice. she's a lovely girl. then towey came over. it was good to see him, but it did add another dynamic to hanging out due to his and caroline's past. we all watched two episodes of grey's anatomy until meghan had to leave, at which point things got a bit strange. it was an unspoken thing, but sean and i really both wanted to be the last one to leave, to have the opportunity to have one on one with caroline. i ended up outlasting AKA staying until 5am. it was good to just be able to talk with caroline about what's happening in the future and lay with each other and let each other know how important the other is. to chicago she went.
had to say goodbye to morgan last night. it wasn't at all like i thought it'd be. we met at bert's around 10:45 and hung out with kev and cohen for a bit until they left. from there we sat inside and uploaded music onto morgan's laptop. i hooked her up with a lot of tribe and whatnot, just the core stuff because we didn't have a lot of time. we called it a night at 12:45 because i had to be home by one. the goodbye part didn't seem like anything because i'm about to be in spokane on monday for a funeral. i plan on visiting GU kids. the drive home was what got me, however. she has been a very VERY important part of my life, namely in my senior year. we were always on the same page, always wanted to see each other and talk, always knew that if we couldn't see each other now we would no doubt make time later. dang.
i'm missing jackson, jono, spence, george and yi a whole lot too. fircrest / tacoma / casinos got considerably less fun when they left.
i'm realizing i'll have to do this just about every year. cool...? nope.
that girl hasn't called, texted, or anything since she's been at school. i don't know if it should, but it hurts a lot. weak stuff, man.
THANK GOODNESS for the internet, the phone, coffee.
i'd like everybody to be here, or to be at college. none of this in between business.