Jan 29, 2010 15:45
Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith? Mark 5:40
Last night was a milestone for me. It was my first day of a college class at the actual college campus. I'm 3 months shy of turning 23 and I'm just now experiencing a real college class, after the majority of my peers are already done with that portion of their life. But I'm different. This is what I've been dreading for the past 3 years... but I've finally come to the point in my life, and with my anxiety, where I can actually do it. I kept thinking about the above verse throughout the day and the drive there, as if Jesus himself were actually speaking directly to me, asking me why I'm so afraid-- do I not have faith to know that He is with me? That He will take care of me and see me through? I need to have the faith that I KNOW Jesus is with me always, standing right beside me, never letting me go through things alone. All that I do is according to His plan, I am not in control, no matter how much I try to be, I'm not. He is. and I'm comforted in that, because I know that He does things to lead me to where HE wants me to be, because He knows what is best. I don't. I'm merely a human who cannot see the forest through the trees and I would surely lead myself down the wrong path.
I also thought a lot about Genesis 28:15 where God tells Jacob "I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go" and Matthew 28:20 where Jesus tells the Apostles "And surely I am with you always" Time and time again God tells us that He is with us, always. That, above all, is what I need to remember. When my anxiety arises, and I'm unsure of where I'm going or if what I'm doing is right... God is with me. Do not be afraid. and for this I cannot rejoice enough.