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Sometimes I feel like I might come off as a little pretentious. I don't mean to, but maybe I do because I have strong opinions. When you're young you feel like you can do anything, that you can save the world. You think this because you don't know any better, you know nothing outside of the world your parents have created for you. When you get older you start to grasp the reality of what exactly is going on in the world, and the awful situation the earth, and the people in it are in. You feel that the task at hand is bigger than yourself, you're overwhelmed and feel that nothing you could do could ever change the bigger picture, so you give up, you stop trying. I stopped trying a long time ago, until I found a envelope a couple weeks ago addressed to myself from Costa Rica. Inside was pamphlets from the Rainforest Alliance and a letter written to me dated May 19, 1996. I was 9 and I thought I could actually change something, that I could make a difference. I had a passion to help things that couldn't help themselves, and somewhere along the way I gave up. I got discouraged. So I made a decision upon seeing that envelope that I wanted to be more like my 9-year-old self than how I am now. I want to feel like I can do anything, that I can help someone or change something-- even if it's small, it's still something. and because of this new restored passion, I have found myself lately becoming quite frustrated with people that don't care, or who aren't willing to sacrifice a little in order to make something better. but I've realized I cannot be this way, I cannot be a mean person. I wish more people cared, but they don't and I can't change that. I can try to convince people that it's easier to be for a cause than against it, it's better to be proactive than idle... If you're not part of the solution, you're part of the problem. but how they receive this is up to them. All I want is to live in a better world, where people have basic necessities and equal opprotunities. I just want change.