so apparently it does happen.
My doctor called me today at 7:30am to give me the results of my biopsy. The mole on my back was fine, perfectly normal. The one on my thigh was melanoma. I have skin cancer. had skin cancer. For the past year I've been living with cancer and didn't even know it. She said she's pretty sure she cut it all out, but still with melanoma cases they have to do a million extra precautions. I have to go to the general surgeon and get more taken out of my leg. More surgery, more stitches, more scars. Small price to pay. I also have to make an appointment with an oncologist, as well as see the dermatologist every 4 months for the next year, and then every 6 months after that. As soon as I got off the phone with her I walked around the house trying to find someone to tell. I found my brother, and he goes, "so? you have cancer?" Actually, yeah. "shutup, no you don't." I called my mom, who started crying. As soon as I got off the phone my sister asked me, "so what'd the doctor say?" It was melanoma "yeah right, they wouldn't tell you that over the phone you idiot." haha. I just got some of the most awful news of my 21 years of living and nobody believes me! It was kind of funny. I went to the store and bought some SPF 70, haha. I can never be too safe now.
It's just so weird. Always hearing, "wear sunblock, stay out of the sun, don't use tanning beds... you'll get skin cancer." and I did. I always thought I probably would, but later on. Way later. When I was old. Not now, not at 21. and I definitely didn't think it would be melanoma. I've had cancer. I'm cancer-free. I could get it again. Strange, for as an emotional person as I am, I didn't cry when I found out. I wasn't really upset, either. I guess because I wasn't shocked. As soon as I found the mole I knew it wasn't good. and it wasn't. but now it's gone, for now. This isn't a death sentence, I know. This is just merely a bump in the road. I just have to drive more cautiously now.
It's just so weird. Always hearing, "wear sunblock, stay out of the sun, don't use tanning beds... you'll get skin cancer." and I did. I always thought I probably would, but later on. Way later. When I was old. Not now, not at 21. and I definitely didn't think it would be melanoma. I've had cancer. I'm cancer-free. I could get it again. Strange, for as an emotional person as I am, I didn't cry when I found out. I wasn't really upset, either. I guess because I wasn't shocked. As soon as I found the mole I knew it wasn't good. and it wasn't. but now it's gone, for now. This isn't a death sentence, I know. This is just merely a bump in the road. I just have to drive more cautiously now.