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Aug 23, 2006 13:02

I had such intense nightmares last night they kept me sleeping until just now, right through my alarm which must have been going off for two hours. I awoke to catch myself taking quick rhythmic breaths and nearly threw up. I still feel like I am going to throw up. Fucking awful. I have to go to work as it is my second day, and the worst way to start it off. I have to relax. I want to pull out every vice right now. I'm a wreck from my subconscious alone and it's chosen right now to torment me with these things that I have to face. I've been okay, generally, probably better than ever, oddly, though I can't pretend that I am not in any pain.

Today is also my mother's birthday. Funny for once I didn't dream about her at all though.
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