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My life is like a rollercoaster . Seriously only the down part of the hills are all ways waaaaaay further down than the up-parts. Ive totally fked myself over agian. I dont know why im so forging. Or so trusting. I mean, I used to want Him. To be with him under any circumstance. But i dont anymore. Only when im with him. I think I do. It seems so different on the outside ..this time..... but really its not. And I cant say this isnt what i want anymore because, he's there and NO one else is. And hes always been there, even when i hated him and didnt want him to be. The biggest part of me wants to just deal with it because, even though im gonna get totaly shit on agian, Its not so bad NOW as long as I dont think about it. Only problem is, I have alot of time to think. I know that its not just him fucking me over, its me too. So im totally confused. My heart says he needs me so i should stick around and i know he does im the only person he can talk to. But my mind tells me its not worth it to care so much about someone when its killing me.....I just dont know what to do.
My life is so crazy right now and i feel like everyones to busy to listen to me talk, Besides Kat and Heart..its like NOONES around, and i really need them to be. I just dont know anymore
everythings so effin complicated and it sucks!!!!
"Your own disaster" -TBS
Just think of this and me
as just a few of many things
to lie around
to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
because there's some thing's
I'd like to say to you...
I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
I dare you to forget
those marks you left
across my neck
from those nights when we were both
found at our best
I could make this obvious,
and you, you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...
I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
I don't think that you know
I said I don't think you know
I said I don't think you know what your missing
Hey, lush, have fun
It's the weekend
Hey, lush, have fun"
My life is so crazy right now and i feel like everyones to busy to listen to me talk, Besides Kat and Heart..its like NOONES around, and i really need them to be. I just dont know anymore
everythings so effin complicated and it sucks!!!!
"Your own disaster" -TBS
Just think of this and me
as just a few of many things
to lie around
to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
because there's some thing's
I'd like to say to you...
I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
I dare you to forget
those marks you left
across my neck
from those nights when we were both
found at our best
I could make this obvious,
and you, you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...
I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
I don't think that you know
I said I don't think you know
I said I don't think you know what your missing
Hey, lush, have fun
It's the weekend
Hey, lush, have fun"