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At this moment in time last year, I was crying in the Panera Bread office with Kristen. Dave came in and asked what was wrong but my head was burried so deep in my hoodie that I could hardly see him. He just nodded and walked away because he knew. I knew too, but unfortunately for me, I was in love and I didn't want to see an end to something that I thought could make it.
I have to say though, it was for the best. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, I grew as a person and I learned what I can and can not deal with. I thought my life was over. I thought I was never going to move on and I thought I could never get myself out of that rut. But I did. It took a lot of time because I clung on to every shred of hope possible, but then one day, I decided it wasn't worth it anymore. I was the only one who cared and I was the only one who tried. It was time for me to move on.
It was for the best because my senior year at Stockton wouldn't have been nearly as fun. I spent a lot of time with my friends and I saw that regardless of what I say or do they're going to love me anyway. I could make all the mistakes in the world, but at the end of the day, my boys and Pam would still love me.
I really don't know where I'm going with this. I just feel like I have all this stuff to say because of what's happened to me in the last year, but i know that regardless of what I say type whatever.. it won't do any justice.
There are a ton of things I wish I could take back. There are a ton of things I wish I could say, but right now, this is simply enough.
I have to say though, it was for the best. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, I grew as a person and I learned what I can and can not deal with. I thought my life was over. I thought I was never going to move on and I thought I could never get myself out of that rut. But I did. It took a lot of time because I clung on to every shred of hope possible, but then one day, I decided it wasn't worth it anymore. I was the only one who cared and I was the only one who tried. It was time for me to move on.
It was for the best because my senior year at Stockton wouldn't have been nearly as fun. I spent a lot of time with my friends and I saw that regardless of what I say or do they're going to love me anyway. I could make all the mistakes in the world, but at the end of the day, my boys and Pam would still love me.
I really don't know where I'm going with this. I just feel like I have all this stuff to say because of what's happened to me in the last year, but i know that regardless of what I say type whatever.. it won't do any justice.
There are a ton of things I wish I could take back. There are a ton of things I wish I could say, but right now, this is simply enough.