Looking back...
I am looking at my life... and my mom brought a good point to me...all the people I have ever truly felt a bond with have been Christians or some sort of religion and went to church frequently. I am not saying I only like religious people but I seem to get a long with them better.
Anyways... I am going down memory lane this year... can you believe it?
I am 15.... It will be 8 years living here ... when I turn 16 this year... I lived at my other house 8 years but the memories there ... make it seem like I lived there longer...
I feel alone... I am not a very social person... I don't want to be really... I have like five friends at school thats it... thats everyone... haha... Josh, Twitty, Laura, Julia and Jenn... oh and Ian & Amanda.... other than that it's like everyone else is invisble to me and I am invisble to them...
I might be seeing my friend Stephanie... soon ... I haven't seen her in over four years I would say....
She's had a baby now... she's only 17... but she was one of my good friends growing up. Her and her family will be coming to see us in less than a month with her baby... which is like 8 months old now... I am so happy because... I've missed her...
On another note... my body keeps telling me to find out what's with my moms old friend Vikki...
When I was about 10... this lady was horribly ill... and she was divorced living in the 'projects' of carisle lmao... sorry but it's what we would call the projects.. but it's really not compared to other projects... anyways... my mother and I would go over there and pray for her...She had two sons... a blonde one and a brown haired one... the blonde one was Christian... and I forgot the other boys name... well... I was over there so much I had to 'bond' with them... they were sweet... the blonde boy liked me ... or as most say... had a crush on me but I didn't like him back.. but anyways to make this long story very short.. my mother saw Christan and Vikki... around two years ago when I was like 14... after like four years of not seeing her... Vikki's condition had worsened... (oh we didn't see her for like four years because she had tried to kill herself and welll Vikki needed help.. so she and the boys moved away)... apparently... she was about to die... well not like definitely.. but almost surely... my mother had to add that Christian become unbelievably hot lmao whatever I didn't like the kid then I probably wouldn't like him now... now I almost 16... and I've been wondering lately if she's still living... and if she's ok... so for some reason I asked my mom to call and check up on her.. but I came to find out my mom doesn't even have her phone # anymore which depresses me because I need to know if she's ok or not...
I send my best wishes to her... if she's still alive or if she's with god now... either way...
I'll end this entry on a sad note...
Anyways... I am going down memory lane this year... can you believe it?
I am 15.... It will be 8 years living here ... when I turn 16 this year... I lived at my other house 8 years but the memories there ... make it seem like I lived there longer...
I feel alone... I am not a very social person... I don't want to be really... I have like five friends at school thats it... thats everyone... haha... Josh, Twitty, Laura, Julia and Jenn... oh and Ian & Amanda.... other than that it's like everyone else is invisble to me and I am invisble to them...
I might be seeing my friend Stephanie... soon ... I haven't seen her in over four years I would say....
She's had a baby now... she's only 17... but she was one of my good friends growing up. Her and her family will be coming to see us in less than a month with her baby... which is like 8 months old now... I am so happy because... I've missed her...
On another note... my body keeps telling me to find out what's with my moms old friend Vikki...
When I was about 10... this lady was horribly ill... and she was divorced living in the 'projects' of carisle lmao... sorry but it's what we would call the projects.. but it's really not compared to other projects... anyways... my mother and I would go over there and pray for her...She had two sons... a blonde one and a brown haired one... the blonde one was Christian... and I forgot the other boys name... well... I was over there so much I had to 'bond' with them... they were sweet... the blonde boy liked me ... or as most say... had a crush on me but I didn't like him back.. but anyways to make this long story very short.. my mother saw Christan and Vikki... around two years ago when I was like 14... after like four years of not seeing her... Vikki's condition had worsened... (oh we didn't see her for like four years because she had tried to kill herself and welll Vikki needed help.. so she and the boys moved away)... apparently... she was about to die... well not like definitely.. but almost surely... my mother had to add that Christian become unbelievably hot lmao whatever I didn't like the kid then I probably wouldn't like him now... now I almost 16... and I've been wondering lately if she's still living... and if she's ok... so for some reason I asked my mom to call and check up on her.. but I came to find out my mom doesn't even have her phone # anymore which depresses me because I need to know if she's ok or not...
I send my best wishes to her... if she's still alive or if she's with god now... either way...
I'll end this entry on a sad note...