I am sorry to you.
anonymous
December 29 2004, 10:57:08 UTC
Look, I am so sorry your brother passed away. I know the hurt you must still feel. And, you are right, I shouldn't let a waste of life like Roxc get to me, but I am so enraged and pissed off about all the cover ups and lying that is going on. I know if I keep going I am going like this I am gonna end up in an early grave, but I NEED to know what happened that night. I just need to know if Robby was left there to die, or if he suffered, or if Roxc was even watching out for him. And, why didn't she stay at the hospital w/Robby? She loved him that much and she hauls ass after the Doc tells her he is gone. I am in no way angry w/Felix, Spike or any of the others. I just want justice for my brother. He would have done anything for her, and she probably doesn't even remember his name. I am sorry, but I will not release his cause of death to anyone, and that is because Roxc doesn't need or have the right to know. I have tried praying, psychiatrists and nothing helps. It is terrible to say, but if a cop was to come to my house one day and ask where I was at such and such time because Roxc has been murdered, I would probably buy that cop dinner and give him a huge hug for bringing me such good news. That is a terrible way to feel, but I don't care. I will forever carry her in my heart and for the rest of my life I will most likely be a bitter person. I keep thinking Robby will come home to me. I am a Christian and do have faith, but as you said, Let God punish her. I just don't want to wait that long. **thank-you for being so kind about this and not cussing me. Your sympathy is much appreciated. I just hope you NEVER forget my brother and always have good thoughts about him. I don't know if I have ever met you, but my e-mail is: tuckerbear@hotmail.com (if you don't wish to do this over live journal) **Thanks again -W/love, Amanda
Re: I am sorry to you.foxc_roxcJanuary 10 2005, 15:53:28 UTC
Just so you know, I wanted to stay, but as Spike, Felix, Chris and Lexi are my witness, I was told to leave "in fear for my life", as that is what the doctor was told by Amanda's husband. I love Rob with all my heart, and I still pray to him all the time, as if it is anyone's business. As for my being "engaged", Mark asked to marry me. No plans have been made. He wants to get married on Halloween, but nothing is in the works. There is no way that I can control anyone's feelings. Rob will always be in my heart, and Lillian still refers to him as her "real" daddy and still has pictures on her desk. We will always be heartbroken, justas Mark will always be heartbroken about his daughter's mother;s death, in which she overdosed as well.
As for the cd's, I will mail them as proimised, but I dont have your address. If you want to email me the address, it is foxcroxc@earthlink.net. Mark was just saying this morning that we need to do that, and it honestly slipped my mind because of all that is going on (not only medically). I really don't have his tv. I really honestly dont. i know you wont take my word fro it, but I just plain don't have it. Chris was living with me at the time, and he knows I didn't have it then, and I dont have it now. I would give it back if I had it because I knoe you want it. It was your brother's. I would want everything back if my brother passed as well.
Please if you only do me one favor in this lifetime, please don't bring Lillian into this. Maybe I am not mother of the year, but I do try my hardest to raise her the best that I can. I know I am not the best mom. But Lillian does know how to read, and she does read his livejournal when she goes online, and all I can do is tell her that people don't like me and say things to try to hurt my feelings. It is hard to explain to a 7 year old things like this.
Yesterday I was crying, and I was crying for Rob. I miss him so much, no matter who begs to differ with me. But I love Mark too. He is the only person in this worls that could match up even close to Rob, and if Mark and I had never met, I would still be single. I visit Rob every chance I get (which would be whenever I get up to the tampa area) and it breaks my heart every time. Then again, it also comforts me to know he is in a better place, better than all this bullshit that is going on in this world. It hurts me more than when I visit my grandmother's grave; I suppose because it was a different kind of love. Rob opened his heart to everyone in this world. He always gave someone a chance no matter what. He never read the book by the cover. I will always love Rob and no one can ever take that away from me.
Re: I am sorry to you.
anonymous
January 14 2005, 09:00:27 UTC
Roxy you are a fucking joke, flat out. You don't have Rob's TV? What would all the guys from Fort Myers say? I think we all know what they would say as they have already TOLD EVERYONE you still have it.
I personally can't wait to see you, it's something you will remember for rest of your life (seeing how your days are numbered)
Re: I am sorry to you.foxc_roxcJanuary 16 2005, 07:29:09 UTC
what would "all the guys from fort myers" say? How the hell should I know. But if they said I have Rob's tv, or said I told them that I have his tv, they are liars. And to say I still have it? I never had it to begin with. I dont even know how big this tv is supposed to be. But I could turn blue in the face trying to tell you this and it wouldnt matter because you wont believe me anyway.
as for my days being numbered... yeah right. Like I have that kind of luck! No, see you can threaten me.. (oh no wait let me guess; ir's not a threat, its a promise, right?)
I am sorry, but I will not release his cause of death to anyone, and that is because Roxc doesn't need or have the right to know. I have tried praying, psychiatrists and nothing helps. It is terrible to say, but if a cop was to come to my house one day and ask where I was at such and such time because Roxc has been murdered, I would probably buy that cop dinner and give him a huge hug for bringing me such good news. That is a terrible way to feel, but I don't care. I will forever carry her in my heart and for the rest of my life I will most likely be a bitter person. I keep thinking Robby will come home to me. I am a Christian and do have faith, but as you said, Let God punish her. I just don't want to wait that long.
**thank-you for being so kind about this and not cussing me. Your sympathy is much appreciated. I just hope you NEVER forget my brother and always have good thoughts about him. I don't know if I have ever met you, but my e-mail is: tuckerbear@hotmail.com (if you don't wish to do this over live journal) **Thanks again -W/love, Amanda
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As for the cd's, I will mail them as proimised, but I dont have your address. If you want to email me the address, it is foxcroxc@earthlink.net. Mark was just saying this morning that we need to do that, and it honestly slipped my mind because of all that is going on (not only medically). I really don't have his tv. I really honestly dont. i know you wont take my word fro it, but I just plain don't have it. Chris was living with me at the time, and he knows I didn't have it then, and I dont have it now. I would give it back if I had it because I knoe you want it. It was your brother's. I would want everything back if my brother passed as well.
Please if you only do me one favor in this lifetime, please don't bring Lillian into this. Maybe I am not mother of the year, but I do try my hardest to raise her the best that I can. I know I am not the best mom. But Lillian does know how to read, and she does read his livejournal when she goes online, and all I can do is tell her that people don't like me and say things to try to hurt my feelings. It is hard to explain to a 7 year old things like this.
Yesterday I was crying, and I was crying for Rob. I miss him so much, no matter who begs to differ with me. But I love Mark too. He is the only person in this worls that could match up even close to Rob, and if Mark and I had never met, I would still be single. I visit Rob every chance I get (which would be whenever I get up to the tampa area) and it breaks my heart every time. Then again, it also comforts me to know he is in a better place, better than all this bullshit that is going on in this world. It hurts me more than when I visit my grandmother's grave; I suppose because it was a different kind of love. Rob opened his heart to everyone in this world. He always gave someone a chance no matter what. He never read the book by the cover. I will always love Rob and no one can ever take that away from me.
**Roxc**
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I personally can't wait to see you, it's something you will remember for rest of your life (seeing how your days are numbered)
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as for my days being numbered... yeah right. Like I have that kind of luck! No, see you can threaten me.. (oh no wait let me guess; ir's not a threat, its a promise, right?)
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