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Its been way too long since I've written. A lot has happened since my last post. I have finally started my permanent position at Rio Tinto and won't have to work over 40hrs a week to get a decent wage anymore. Thank GOD! This means that I can focus more on my personal life with Sam and strengthen our relationship again. I haven't been paying her a lot of attention lately because I'm so damned stressed out about making financial ends meet. Its quite difficult being a 26 yr old and having to support not just yourself but another person as well. When I was only a contractor, I literally almost killed myself with the rediculous hours that I worked. I can think of at least three occassions where I worked 50hr weeks. Pretty bad isn't it?
With this permanent position, I was lucky that I was able to go on this leadership workshop in Kooralbyn during the first week of my employment. It helped me start back on the right foot and remind me of the positive skills and outlooks that I used to have at my previous jobs. I had lost those somewhere along the way and became quite depressed and easily conformed to people's advise and wishes. I was NEVER like that. I would disuss situations with my co-workers first and help come up with a better solution instead of giving in. This workshop helped me find the analytical and problem solving Jess again and I feel SO much better about myself.
At the same time, I missed Sam like crazy while I was there. At every break, evening, and morning I called her up telling her how I missed and loved her. I think she really appreciated me doing that. I hadn't shown much appreciation towards her in these past couple of months and it was a huge eye opener to me. Luckily I saw this before I had left and spent all of Sunday with her and took her to lunch and a movie. That was a fantastic day and would love to do that with her again. We had so much fun.
From now on, I'm going to learn to leave my work at work and not bring it home. I need to give my brain a break and give Sam more attention and listen to her issues.
With this permanent position, I was lucky that I was able to go on this leadership workshop in Kooralbyn during the first week of my employment. It helped me start back on the right foot and remind me of the positive skills and outlooks that I used to have at my previous jobs. I had lost those somewhere along the way and became quite depressed and easily conformed to people's advise and wishes. I was NEVER like that. I would disuss situations with my co-workers first and help come up with a better solution instead of giving in. This workshop helped me find the analytical and problem solving Jess again and I feel SO much better about myself.
At the same time, I missed Sam like crazy while I was there. At every break, evening, and morning I called her up telling her how I missed and loved her. I think she really appreciated me doing that. I hadn't shown much appreciation towards her in these past couple of months and it was a huge eye opener to me. Luckily I saw this before I had left and spent all of Sunday with her and took her to lunch and a movie. That was a fantastic day and would love to do that with her again. We had so much fun.
From now on, I'm going to learn to leave my work at work and not bring it home. I need to give my brain a break and give Sam more attention and listen to her issues.