Am I Really a Workaholic???
I attended Sam's weight mgmt appt. today and had read over her book for Week 7. There is one section that talks about Workaholics. To my disbelief, every single bullet point described me to a tee. What was worse was the outcomes of workaholics. Their relationships with their partners deteriorate, they bring work home, and they start isolating themselves from social activities. I have noticed that I'm not going out as much as I used to and Sam sometimes feels that she isn't getting much attention from me. Ever since I started my contract at Rio Tinto, I've been working 48-50 hrs a week. I know I'm working myself way too hard, but I need the money to support Sam and I. I'm trying so hard to not burnout from my job, but burn out hit me hard today. I got up on time this morning, got myself completely dressed, went to walk out the door and stopped. I dropped my socks and shoes and said, "Nope. I'm not going to work today. I don't want to." I shut the door and went back to bed to cuddle up with Sam. I really enjoyed doing that and have missed it. I also enjoyed spending the entire day with her and was able to relax. I didn't have to think about work and Sam had taken my phone away from me so I wouldn't have to deal with any work related calls. I really needed that.
I want to cut my hours back down to 40-42hrs so I can spend more time with Sam, but I can't do that just yet. I need to wait for my permanent position to come in to place. I want to work on my relationship with her and make it stronger. She needs my support on her weight mgmt program and I can't give her my 100% support while I'm at work. I'm just hoping that the paperwork comes in soon for me to accept my new position, or I'm going to go crazy. I can't keep up these long hours any more. Its really starting to affect my health and my social activities. I feel so drained when I come home every evening and I just want to go to bed. I would like to come home and cuddle up with Sam, watch some TV with her, and talk about how our days went, but I just don't have any energy when I get home.
When my permanent job comes in to place, I plan on changing my habits a lot. I'm going to make a considerable effort to work no more than 9hrs a day, take an hour for lunch, and get home by 4:30pm. I'm going to set aside my entire evening to spend some quality time with Sam. I think the both of us really need that. The both of us have a lot going on and I believe that we can only get through that by physically and emotionally being there for each other. Sometimes words can't compare to a hug and I want to be there to give as many hugs as I can.
I want to cut my hours back down to 40-42hrs so I can spend more time with Sam, but I can't do that just yet. I need to wait for my permanent position to come in to place. I want to work on my relationship with her and make it stronger. She needs my support on her weight mgmt program and I can't give her my 100% support while I'm at work. I'm just hoping that the paperwork comes in soon for me to accept my new position, or I'm going to go crazy. I can't keep up these long hours any more. Its really starting to affect my health and my social activities. I feel so drained when I come home every evening and I just want to go to bed. I would like to come home and cuddle up with Sam, watch some TV with her, and talk about how our days went, but I just don't have any energy when I get home.
When my permanent job comes in to place, I plan on changing my habits a lot. I'm going to make a considerable effort to work no more than 9hrs a day, take an hour for lunch, and get home by 4:30pm. I'm going to set aside my entire evening to spend some quality time with Sam. I think the both of us really need that. The both of us have a lot going on and I believe that we can only get through that by physically and emotionally being there for each other. Sometimes words can't compare to a hug and I want to be there to give as many hugs as I can.