sir, you will please hold?
i feel i am on hold.
i think that is the just of it as of late. i think i am on hold. like the world continues going on...things are happening to other people. but i am just on hold. nothing more. nothing less.
it's a weird feeling. like i feel i have stopped.
i am not sad. nor am i really depressed. i am just....here.
has something deep inside me vanished to leave me feeling this way?
i don't know.
i really wish i would write in here as much as i do in my personal joural...but i don't. nor it probably wouldn't be the greatest of ideas.
but anyways...on hold. I feel like i am on the phone waiting for this specific call...and i can't hang up because the information on the other line is so much more important than for me to be distracted by other things...now this information and waiting on the line is not literally talking about a person persay...more metaphoricly speaking...i feel the person on the other line is more important. it's weird. like i can't hang up...i can't talk either...i am just on hold. waiting. i don't know what this means. i am really not expecting anything to happen. nor am i really waiting for anything...well scratch that. but still. is this right for me to hold on to holding? it's a choice...i think. i mean i think i want to hold. but is it the right thing? are you confused? because i fucking am. so if you find this completely over your head...don't worry your not the only one.
(p.s. i have not been online or talking to people as of late because of the amount of working i have been doing...my life consists of pretty much sleep and work...with a few moments of relief elsewhere...so sorry i am not ignoring people..i am just working alot and sleeping.)
i think that is the just of it as of late. i think i am on hold. like the world continues going on...things are happening to other people. but i am just on hold. nothing more. nothing less.
it's a weird feeling. like i feel i have stopped.
i am not sad. nor am i really depressed. i am just....here.
has something deep inside me vanished to leave me feeling this way?
i don't know.
i really wish i would write in here as much as i do in my personal joural...but i don't. nor it probably wouldn't be the greatest of ideas.
but anyways...on hold. I feel like i am on the phone waiting for this specific call...and i can't hang up because the information on the other line is so much more important than for me to be distracted by other things...now this information and waiting on the line is not literally talking about a person persay...more metaphoricly speaking...i feel the person on the other line is more important. it's weird. like i can't hang up...i can't talk either...i am just on hold. waiting. i don't know what this means. i am really not expecting anything to happen. nor am i really waiting for anything...well scratch that. but still. is this right for me to hold on to holding? it's a choice...i think. i mean i think i want to hold. but is it the right thing? are you confused? because i fucking am. so if you find this completely over your head...don't worry your not the only one.
(p.s. i have not been online or talking to people as of late because of the amount of working i have been doing...my life consists of pretty much sleep and work...with a few moments of relief elsewhere...so sorry i am not ignoring people..i am just working alot and sleeping.)