weekend

[riotchick710]

this weekend was alright...
jus..kinda disapointed at my self
for letting sum meaningless shit
get the best of me right now, ehh
literly i jus shed like a few tears...
makes me sad but more then anything
upset that i let it get to me...
i know i shouldnt but sumtimes its
inavoidable...its jus hard
to think that the perception u have
of sumone is in a goodway...
doesnt nessarly mean they
see me like that.
sumtimes i jus think i try too
hard to please/be there for others
(which i honestly dont mind) thats what friends
are for but i dont look for anything in return
i swear i dont...but some peoples actions
jus show me, how they really think of me...
and it hurts, as reality and the truth sinks in...
right before my eyes...
i wont and i cant lie to myself, and bring up
excuses...for them?!?!
ha..thats how much i dont wanna believe it, but i must.