i wish i wasn't such a freakass
last night i went to kyles
hung out with his friend gerry
n got to meet the infamous meaghan
she's pretty tight =D
hella nice too
then of course we had our alone time
which is nice
we talked alot
i opened up to him
it was much easier than i was anticipating
quite comfortable actually =D
he's amazing
i cried while laying on his bed
i don't think he knows either lol
well i didn't like full out cry but tears fell
i talked to him about my grandpa n how i miss him
n told him about the dream i had shortly after he died
n shit like that
we related...he told me stories about his great grandparents n how they died n stuff
it was nice
today was not too bad
lunch was fun
100.3 the beat was at our school
they played rap music durring lunch
i danced...well not danced but
i danced in my seat haha
it got crazy
ppl were dancing n jumpin on tables ahah
monkeeeeys lol jk jk
i wish i wouldn't be so paranoid all the time tho
it drives me fucking insane
it kills me man
i dont think i'll ever talk to him about it
it'll make him feel like i don't trust him
i trust him for sure
just idk...my mind gets the best of me on occasion
w/e tho...i ignore it...kinda have to