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----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:49 PM
no its not that don't trust you
i just don't trust you completely
i'm sure i'll get that back
we always end up ok in the end
i haven't "moved on" to anything,
ur still my bestie no matter what
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:43 PM
ok
ha i hate it how i turn things around on me
but you know what that doesnt matter
cause thats past.
if you dont trust me
you dont, you dont trust me.
whats done is done
it seems youve already moved on to your new and better bestie
from me to her:
it was none of ur business.
i was gonna tell her on my own time.
i had to figure out what i was gonna say b4 i did.
i was gonna say it nicely.
weither or not u thought i was going to tell her does not give you the right to take matters into your own hands.
i went to u as a friend, as someone i could trust, and you betrayed that trust.
i'm touchy with trust, we all know this.
i'm surprised i ever trust anyone.
i'm not surprised that this happend tho, i knew i shouldn't have said anything to u about it right after i did.
but you can't exactly erase time can you?
no. but u can surely keep things from escaping ur lips.
you can surely watch what ur saying to someone.
thats what i intend to do from here on out.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:26 PM
well to tell you the truth. i didnt think you were gonna tell her. so i did. because i gave you guys a chance to talk when i was going to drama, and nothing happened. and dora came in and said "what happened" i said nothing, its not something i should tell you. but i told her after she got all depressed that i wouldnt. she said she would have rather heard it from me anyway. it really wasnt my business, and i know that. but i guess since i felt you werent going to say anything, i figured i should. but that still doesnt make it right. to tell you yet another truth, i do think this will effect our friendship. weve been through so uch now, that i feel like with every bit that goes wrong, every word we say that we regret, we fade apart. and i dont want to lose you as a friend. and i wont stop telling you things.
from me to her :
it has nothing to do with u being sorry or not
i know you're sorry
i just now feel like
theres some things i just can't
tell you
n ur right
it did take alot for me to ask u
honestly, i didn't really wanna talk to u
i needed time to think about it
n i've thought about it
n came to realize that
sometimes im gonna have to bite my tongue
n not say certain things to u
or tell u certain stories
it all kinda threw me off
thats y i was so uncomfortable
i was so comfortable with knowing
that i could trust u with anything
that it was hard finding out
that just maybe i can't
which is fine
its not really a big deal to me
i mean its not gonna effect our friendship or anything
a few things might change
but nothing major
i don't want to not be friends with u
ur still an amazing friend
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:10 PM
yea kinda:/
i really am sorry
truly
i hope you know that
but i kinda got this...vibe today
when you hugged dora
after you got out of health
and you asked if ms.boyd was here, it looked like it took you so much just to say that to me. you were so uncomfortable
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:02 PM
oh ok.
that odvious huh?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:46 PM
i dunno just was
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:12 PM
why do you ask?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:07 PM
i see
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:03 PM
yeah i do
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:02 PM
so do you feel awkward around me?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:49 PM
no its not that don't trust you
i just don't trust you completely
i'm sure i'll get that back
we always end up ok in the end
i haven't "moved on" to anything,
ur still my bestie no matter what
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:43 PM
ok
ha i hate it how i turn things around on me
but you know what that doesnt matter
cause thats past.
if you dont trust me
you dont, you dont trust me.
whats done is done
it seems youve already moved on to your new and better bestie
from me to her:
it was none of ur business.
i was gonna tell her on my own time.
i had to figure out what i was gonna say b4 i did.
i was gonna say it nicely.
weither or not u thought i was going to tell her does not give you the right to take matters into your own hands.
i went to u as a friend, as someone i could trust, and you betrayed that trust.
i'm touchy with trust, we all know this.
i'm surprised i ever trust anyone.
i'm not surprised that this happend tho, i knew i shouldn't have said anything to u about it right after i did.
but you can't exactly erase time can you?
no. but u can surely keep things from escaping ur lips.
you can surely watch what ur saying to someone.
thats what i intend to do from here on out.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:26 PM
well to tell you the truth. i didnt think you were gonna tell her. so i did. because i gave you guys a chance to talk when i was going to drama, and nothing happened. and dora came in and said "what happened" i said nothing, its not something i should tell you. but i told her after she got all depressed that i wouldnt. she said she would have rather heard it from me anyway. it really wasnt my business, and i know that. but i guess since i felt you werent going to say anything, i figured i should. but that still doesnt make it right. to tell you yet another truth, i do think this will effect our friendship. weve been through so uch now, that i feel like with every bit that goes wrong, every word we say that we regret, we fade apart. and i dont want to lose you as a friend. and i wont stop telling you things.
from me to her :
it has nothing to do with u being sorry or not
i know you're sorry
i just now feel like
theres some things i just can't
tell you
n ur right
it did take alot for me to ask u
honestly, i didn't really wanna talk to u
i needed time to think about it
n i've thought about it
n came to realize that
sometimes im gonna have to bite my tongue
n not say certain things to u
or tell u certain stories
it all kinda threw me off
thats y i was so uncomfortable
i was so comfortable with knowing
that i could trust u with anything
that it was hard finding out
that just maybe i can't
which is fine
its not really a big deal to me
i mean its not gonna effect our friendship or anything
a few things might change
but nothing major
i don't want to not be friends with u
ur still an amazing friend
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:10 PM
yea kinda:/
i really am sorry
truly
i hope you know that
but i kinda got this...vibe today
when you hugged dora
after you got out of health
and you asked if ms.boyd was here, it looked like it took you so much just to say that to me. you were so uncomfortable
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 6:02 PM
oh ok.
that odvious huh?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:46 PM
i dunno just was
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:12 PM
why do you ask?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:07 PM
i see
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss Christ [OfficiAlly AddicTed]
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:03 PM
yeah i do
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: .Godless.
Date: Nov 1, 2006 5:02 PM
so do you feel awkward around me?