Wasurenaide (Prolouge+Chapter 1)
Title: Wasurenaide[Prologue+Chapter 1]
Author: rionkaori
Status: ongoing
Pairing(s): Akame, slight Pikame, other side pairing to come(?)
Rating: G
Genre: angts, romance
Beta by: my pillow (just kidding XD ME~!)
Warning: unbetaed
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my plot thanks to my insanely brokenhearted mind
Summary: The story took place last 2012
Which is worse? A sad memory you couldn’t forget? Or a memory you couldn’t remember? After years of his departure, looks like Kamenashi still couldn’t erase him from his memories…
Author Note: After ‘organizing’ my documents on my laptop… I saw this fic that I wrote while still in agony and brokenhearted with Jin’s marriage thing… bear with me… cause I’m still broken :’< … anyway, douzo
Btw. Please don’t forget to leave a comment or something XD
***
The moment Kamenashi’s exhausted body dropped on the bed, his thoughts was instantly sailing away and reaches its destination...in dream land…
*Flashback*
He was lying on the ground, looking at the clouds, not even thinking about the time spent and time wasted. Because he was with the one whom he wants to be with…
“ne… Kazu, what do you want to be?” the older boy asked him…
“eh?”
“what I mean is… what’s your dream?”
Kamenashi lifted his hands covering the sun’s light from his eyes “I want to reach the sun…”
“eeh??! Hahaha what an absurd dream hahaha!”
The boy next to him kept on laughing, Kame got pissed off and was about to get up and leave the boy when the boy suddenly stopped laughing and tried to stop him from leaving by grabbing his hands, and they both sat down, the boy suddenly looked serious and was looking at his eyes…
“I’ll be your sun…” wrapping his hands around Kamenashi’s
“huh?”
“I am now your sun…” then he placed Kamenashi’s hands on his cheeks “I am your sun, and now you’ve reached me…”
*End of Flashback*
The light and heat coming from the sun is now touching Kamenashi’s face causing him to wake up.
“Why do I have to dream about that now?”
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Upon reaching for a book, one of the photo albums that he have place on his book shelf fell down, it contains some of his pictures during his junior days, before KAT-TUN’s debut or even before it was formed.
“Ah, so this is where I kept all these pictures” Kame smiled as he was browsing in the photo album.
He smile broke when he stumbled upon some pictures of him and Jin during their ‘Okinawa getaway’.
*Flashback*
“Kazu-chan~! Promise me we’ll get through this together!”
“I promise” Kame mumbled as he was trying to get his sleep despite all the whines and ruckus that Jin was making inside their tent.
Jin noticed that Kame’s starting to doze off ahead of him so he rocked the younger man’s shoulders trying to wake up the other one but did not succeed
“mou~ Kazu don’t sleep on me!” Jin pouted
*End of Flashback*
‘Hmn… some trash had been accumulating lot of space in my place lately’ Kame thought and was about to throw the whole album the waste bin, but in the end he just couldn’t and so he place the album back to his bookshelf.
***
Saki no koto dore hodo ni kan gaete itemo
hontou no koto nante dare ni mo mienai
kuuhaku? kokoro ni nanika ga tsumatte
ayamachi bakari kuri kaeshiteta
ippo zutsu de iisa kono te wo hanasazuni
tomo ni ayunda hibi ga iki tsuzukeru kara
boroboro ni narumade hikisakarete itemo
ano toki no ano basho kienai kono kizuna
The Kamenashi Kazuya has been once again invited in the Shounen Club, and for all the songs that have been written, the hosts have chosen the song Kizuna for him to sing. After finishing his performance, on the backstage he could feel his energy getting drained for the every second that was passing. Yamapi who was also a guest on the show noticed Kazuya on the corner with his eyes closed then he decided to sit beside the younger man.
“Hisashiburi” Yamapi said as he sat on the long sofa in where the unaware Kame was sitting
Kame was a bit shocked at first, his body stiffed for a bit and he raised his guard immediately, even knowing that the ‘intruder’ was only Yamapi, he didn’t let dropped his guard down thus, he allowed himself to drift off
Noticing that the other is not paying attention to him, Yamapi pouted and placed his chin on Kame’s shoulders
“You still haven’t changed a bit Shuuji-kun… you’d still sleep anywhere possible”
“Shut up Tomo, I’m tired… let me at least rest my eyes, my next performance would be after 20 minutes or so” Kame did not even bother to open his eyes and was still trying to at least take a nap for that 20 minutes span
“You know, it’s alright to sometimes soften up to others Kazuya, not everyone would harm you… I’m still your friend, ne? It’s alright to always do your best in everything but please do not over do yourself” Yamapi said his voice sounding a bit worried about his friend.
“Hmmn”
“I’ll lend you my lap. Come on, sleep if you want to” pulled Kame to his lap, Kame hesitated at first but in the end he allowed himself use Yamapi’s legs as a pillow “I’ll wake you up when it’s time for your performance”
“Arigatou… Tomo-kun” Kame started to drop his guard down on Yampi and soon drifted off to sleep
Yamapi looked at Kame’s sleeping form and started to play on the younger man’s fringe. ‘A lot have changed lately ne? A lot have changed about you… Does HE still have an impact on you?’
***
*Flashback*
“Nani?!” Kamenashi nearly jumped off from his seat
“I mean it Kazu, I already informed my parents… I’m gonna focus on my career” Jin gulped down on his can of soda
“But Jin, what about your future?”
“Kazu, my future is in this business.. with you, I want to focus on US more. After all, school is just a hindrance for me, that’s why I decided to just stop with it”
Kame was about to say something to Jin but the older grabbed his hands and…
“I just want you to support me with my decision Kazu, just your support. Actually, I could go on living just knowing that you would support me and will always be there for me”
Kame just gave his friend the brightest smile and said “Of course I would always be here for you BAKA!”
After a month, there have been an uproar where in Kamenashi had also dropped out of school and focused on his career as an idol, along with his best friend. In which his parents have been deliberately against but said nothing and just supported their son’s decision. Many knew that Kame alone could not make such decisions if not influenced by a certain Akanishi.
*End of Flashback*
***
“So… Where do you want to go for dinner?”
After their performance together, singing Seishun Amigo as Shuuji to Akira once again, Yamapi kept on clinging on Kame, and the younger tried his best to get out of Yamapi’s hold.
“I am going home for dinner and so that I could also finally get some sleep” and walked away from Yamapi
“mou~! Kazu-tan you’re no fun” Yamapi pouted while Kame stiffened when he heard Yamapi call him as ‘Kazu-tan’
“Do not address me as ‘Kazu’, ‘Kazu-chan’ or ‘Kazu-tan’ ever again… understood Yamashita-san?” Kame continued to walk faster to avoid Yamapi questioning him
Out in the distance Yamapi was still following Kame up until to the car park
“Will you please stop following me?” Kame hissed when he noticed that Yamapi was still tailing him
“demmo Shuuji~! I didn’t come here with my car… drive me home ne?” Yamapi tried to lure Kame with his puppy dog eyes
“Take a cab then” attempting to enter his car and drive immediately, Yamapi sensed that Kame would just leave him there alone so he acted instantly and got inside the driver’s seat
“Oi! Get out of my car Yamashita-san” Kame was dumbfounded
“Come on Kame, we’re both tired and I know you still haven’t got enough sleep. Let me drive you home, just hand me your car keys” feeling defeated Kame immediately gave in and hopped inside his own car and sat on the passenger’s seat, buckled up and glanced at Yamapi
“You could sleep on the way you know, I’ll drive slowly” Kame didn’t said anything and just sat comfortably and was soon drifting to sleep
The drive to Kame’s house from the studio was only half an hour but since Yamapi noticed that he should let Kame sleep some more he just basically drove almost all around Tokyo
‘You’ve been forgetting about yourself a lot lately, I keep on wondering that could have caused that…’ Yamapi thought when he glanced at the sleeping Kame... his thoughts got cut off when he heard Kame murmured that name…
“Jin…”
Yamapi flinched ‘Ah… yes, who else could it be but that guy… I guess you really couldn’t forget him. Demmo Kame, you’re just hurting yourself… you’re hurting yourself…’ then he drove around some more. Even if he himself is tired because of his projects, he just couldn’t leave Kame like that, after all…
***
Kame felt more lively than usual
‘hmmn… maybe because I got to sleep more, I should let Yamapi drive me home more often’
For the past few days whenever the two of them would bump into each other Yamapi would always happen to have left his car and would keep on insisting that Kame should give him a lift home but would always be the one to drive the car and letting Kame doze off while on the way
Kame walking to Johnny’s office when the old man summoned him, on his way there he saw something that made him stand dead on his track
‘No! It can’t be…’
He ran to the toilet hoping not to bump into someone and locked himself up in one of the cubicle
‘Even after all these years… your presence could still...’ he was shaking
*Flashback*
“YOU DON’T GET IT KAMENASHI! YOU WERE NEVER GIVEN THIS KIND OF CHANCE! YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND! CAN YOU ATLEAST PRETEND TO BE HAPPY FOR ME? I NEVER SAID ANYTHING TO YOU WHEN YOU DECIDED TO DEBUT ALONG WITH PI!”
Jin was yelling and waving his hands in front of Kame trying to make an emphasis on what he just said while Kame tried to calm himself trying hard not to let his tears fall, then he felt a lump forming on his throat…
He gathered all his courage and smiled
“I am happy for you Jin. I’m sorry …you were right… this is something I would never understand. Congratulations and I’m sorry I’ve been hard on you…”
“Thank you”
With that Jin just walked away leaving Kame alone and it is when Kame’s legs gave up and he slumped on the floor. The tears that he was holding up earlier started flowing, the sobs he was trying to suppress came out of his mouth. He tried to cover his mouth with his hands so that he wouldn’t make a noise. He felt so drained
‘I thought that through this, we’d finally be close once again…. but I was wrong…’ Kame hugged himself…
*End of Flashback*
Upon recalling that painful past Kame slumped on the tilled floor… feeling as if his energy was drained out
**************
CHAPTER 2
Author: rionkaori
Status: ongoing
Pairing(s): Akame, slight Pikame, other side pairing to come(?)
Rating: G
Genre: angts, romance
Beta by: my pillow (just kidding XD ME~!)
Warning: unbetaed
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my plot thanks to my insanely brokenhearted mind
Summary: The story took place last 2012
Which is worse? A sad memory you couldn’t forget? Or a memory you couldn’t remember? After years of his departure, looks like Kamenashi still couldn’t erase him from his memories…
Author Note: After ‘organizing’ my documents on my laptop… I saw this fic that I wrote while still in agony and brokenhearted with Jin’s marriage thing… bear with me… cause I’m still broken :’< … anyway, douzo
Btw. Please don’t forget to leave a comment or something XD
***
The moment Kamenashi’s exhausted body dropped on the bed, his thoughts was instantly sailing away and reaches its destination...in dream land…
*Flashback*
He was lying on the ground, looking at the clouds, not even thinking about the time spent and time wasted. Because he was with the one whom he wants to be with…
“ne… Kazu, what do you want to be?” the older boy asked him…
“eh?”
“what I mean is… what’s your dream?”
Kamenashi lifted his hands covering the sun’s light from his eyes “I want to reach the sun…”
“eeh??! Hahaha what an absurd dream hahaha!”
The boy next to him kept on laughing, Kame got pissed off and was about to get up and leave the boy when the boy suddenly stopped laughing and tried to stop him from leaving by grabbing his hands, and they both sat down, the boy suddenly looked serious and was looking at his eyes…
“I’ll be your sun…” wrapping his hands around Kamenashi’s
“huh?”
“I am now your sun…” then he placed Kamenashi’s hands on his cheeks “I am your sun, and now you’ve reached me…”
*End of Flashback*
The light and heat coming from the sun is now touching Kamenashi’s face causing him to wake up.
“Why do I have to dream about that now?”
______****_______****______****_______****______****_______****______****_______****
Upon reaching for a book, one of the photo albums that he have place on his book shelf fell down, it contains some of his pictures during his junior days, before KAT-TUN’s debut or even before it was formed.
“Ah, so this is where I kept all these pictures” Kame smiled as he was browsing in the photo album.
He smile broke when he stumbled upon some pictures of him and Jin during their ‘Okinawa getaway’.
*Flashback*
“Kazu-chan~! Promise me we’ll get through this together!”
“I promise” Kame mumbled as he was trying to get his sleep despite all the whines and ruckus that Jin was making inside their tent.
Jin noticed that Kame’s starting to doze off ahead of him so he rocked the younger man’s shoulders trying to wake up the other one but did not succeed
“mou~ Kazu don’t sleep on me!” Jin pouted
*End of Flashback*
‘Hmn… some trash had been accumulating lot of space in my place lately’ Kame thought and was about to throw the whole album the waste bin, but in the end he just couldn’t and so he place the album back to his bookshelf.
***
Saki no koto dore hodo ni kan gaete itemo
hontou no koto nante dare ni mo mienai
kuuhaku? kokoro ni nanika ga tsumatte
ayamachi bakari kuri kaeshiteta
ippo zutsu de iisa kono te wo hanasazuni
tomo ni ayunda hibi ga iki tsuzukeru kara
boroboro ni narumade hikisakarete itemo
ano toki no ano basho kienai kono kizuna
The Kamenashi Kazuya has been once again invited in the Shounen Club, and for all the songs that have been written, the hosts have chosen the song Kizuna for him to sing. After finishing his performance, on the backstage he could feel his energy getting drained for the every second that was passing. Yamapi who was also a guest on the show noticed Kazuya on the corner with his eyes closed then he decided to sit beside the younger man.
“Hisashiburi” Yamapi said as he sat on the long sofa in where the unaware Kame was sitting
Kame was a bit shocked at first, his body stiffed for a bit and he raised his guard immediately, even knowing that the ‘intruder’ was only Yamapi, he didn’t let dropped his guard down thus, he allowed himself to drift off
Noticing that the other is not paying attention to him, Yamapi pouted and placed his chin on Kame’s shoulders
“You still haven’t changed a bit Shuuji-kun… you’d still sleep anywhere possible”
“Shut up Tomo, I’m tired… let me at least rest my eyes, my next performance would be after 20 minutes or so” Kame did not even bother to open his eyes and was still trying to at least take a nap for that 20 minutes span
“You know, it’s alright to sometimes soften up to others Kazuya, not everyone would harm you… I’m still your friend, ne? It’s alright to always do your best in everything but please do not over do yourself” Yamapi said his voice sounding a bit worried about his friend.
“Hmmn”
“I’ll lend you my lap. Come on, sleep if you want to” pulled Kame to his lap, Kame hesitated at first but in the end he allowed himself use Yamapi’s legs as a pillow “I’ll wake you up when it’s time for your performance”
“Arigatou… Tomo-kun” Kame started to drop his guard down on Yampi and soon drifted off to sleep
Yamapi looked at Kame’s sleeping form and started to play on the younger man’s fringe. ‘A lot have changed lately ne? A lot have changed about you… Does HE still have an impact on you?’
***
*Flashback*
“Nani?!” Kamenashi nearly jumped off from his seat
“I mean it Kazu, I already informed my parents… I’m gonna focus on my career” Jin gulped down on his can of soda
“But Jin, what about your future?”
“Kazu, my future is in this business.. with you, I want to focus on US more. After all, school is just a hindrance for me, that’s why I decided to just stop with it”
Kame was about to say something to Jin but the older grabbed his hands and…
“I just want you to support me with my decision Kazu, just your support. Actually, I could go on living just knowing that you would support me and will always be there for me”
Kame just gave his friend the brightest smile and said “Of course I would always be here for you BAKA!”
After a month, there have been an uproar where in Kamenashi had also dropped out of school and focused on his career as an idol, along with his best friend. In which his parents have been deliberately against but said nothing and just supported their son’s decision. Many knew that Kame alone could not make such decisions if not influenced by a certain Akanishi.
*End of Flashback*
***
“So… Where do you want to go for dinner?”
After their performance together, singing Seishun Amigo as Shuuji to Akira once again, Yamapi kept on clinging on Kame, and the younger tried his best to get out of Yamapi’s hold.
“I am going home for dinner and so that I could also finally get some sleep” and walked away from Yamapi
“mou~! Kazu-tan you’re no fun” Yamapi pouted while Kame stiffened when he heard Yamapi call him as ‘Kazu-tan’
“Do not address me as ‘Kazu’, ‘Kazu-chan’ or ‘Kazu-tan’ ever again… understood Yamashita-san?” Kame continued to walk faster to avoid Yamapi questioning him
Out in the distance Yamapi was still following Kame up until to the car park
“Will you please stop following me?” Kame hissed when he noticed that Yamapi was still tailing him
“demmo Shuuji~! I didn’t come here with my car… drive me home ne?” Yamapi tried to lure Kame with his puppy dog eyes
“Take a cab then” attempting to enter his car and drive immediately, Yamapi sensed that Kame would just leave him there alone so he acted instantly and got inside the driver’s seat
“Oi! Get out of my car Yamashita-san” Kame was dumbfounded
“Come on Kame, we’re both tired and I know you still haven’t got enough sleep. Let me drive you home, just hand me your car keys” feeling defeated Kame immediately gave in and hopped inside his own car and sat on the passenger’s seat, buckled up and glanced at Yamapi
“You could sleep on the way you know, I’ll drive slowly” Kame didn’t said anything and just sat comfortably and was soon drifting to sleep
The drive to Kame’s house from the studio was only half an hour but since Yamapi noticed that he should let Kame sleep some more he just basically drove almost all around Tokyo
‘You’ve been forgetting about yourself a lot lately, I keep on wondering that could have caused that…’ Yamapi thought when he glanced at the sleeping Kame... his thoughts got cut off when he heard Kame murmured that name…
“Jin…”
Yamapi flinched ‘Ah… yes, who else could it be but that guy… I guess you really couldn’t forget him. Demmo Kame, you’re just hurting yourself… you’re hurting yourself…’ then he drove around some more. Even if he himself is tired because of his projects, he just couldn’t leave Kame like that, after all…
***
Kame felt more lively than usual
‘hmmn… maybe because I got to sleep more, I should let Yamapi drive me home more often’
For the past few days whenever the two of them would bump into each other Yamapi would always happen to have left his car and would keep on insisting that Kame should give him a lift home but would always be the one to drive the car and letting Kame doze off while on the way
Kame walking to Johnny’s office when the old man summoned him, on his way there he saw something that made him stand dead on his track
‘No! It can’t be…’
He ran to the toilet hoping not to bump into someone and locked himself up in one of the cubicle
‘Even after all these years… your presence could still...’ he was shaking
*Flashback*
“YOU DON’T GET IT KAMENASHI! YOU WERE NEVER GIVEN THIS KIND OF CHANCE! YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND! CAN YOU ATLEAST PRETEND TO BE HAPPY FOR ME? I NEVER SAID ANYTHING TO YOU WHEN YOU DECIDED TO DEBUT ALONG WITH PI!”
Jin was yelling and waving his hands in front of Kame trying to make an emphasis on what he just said while Kame tried to calm himself trying hard not to let his tears fall, then he felt a lump forming on his throat…
He gathered all his courage and smiled
“I am happy for you Jin. I’m sorry …you were right… this is something I would never understand. Congratulations and I’m sorry I’ve been hard on you…”
“Thank you”
With that Jin just walked away leaving Kame alone and it is when Kame’s legs gave up and he slumped on the floor. The tears that he was holding up earlier started flowing, the sobs he was trying to suppress came out of his mouth. He tried to cover his mouth with his hands so that he wouldn’t make a noise. He felt so drained
‘I thought that through this, we’d finally be close once again…. but I was wrong…’ Kame hugged himself…
*End of Flashback*
Upon recalling that painful past Kame slumped on the tilled floor… feeling as if his energy was drained out
**************
CHAPTER 2