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Im going to be gone from tomorrow till late sunday night.
Going with a friend to Nashville.
They asked, i said yes.
I need to get away for a bit.
Sure, it isnt far enough away or for as long as id like it to be (permanetly)...but its a start.
Its for the best as well...ive noticed my dislike of people increasing more and more with each passing day.
People id normally be fairly reasonable with, or, would be friendly with...im unfortunetly treating them badly.
Why?
Alot on my mind as of late, more than i care to have on my mind at that.
Ive noticed that i really dont give a damn about hardly anyone or anything anymore.
Distancing myself from everyone.
I dont really talk to anyone and go out even less than i normally do.
People i normally dont mind being around, i dont want to see or be around.
Things i normally enjoy, annoy the hell out of me.
Even just sitting around talking about nothing with people, irl or net-wise, i dont really like doing anymore.
I have a lot of trouble sleeping, tossing and turning or just a lot of really bad dreams.
And cause of the restless/sleeplessness, i wake up stiff/really bad shoulder-back pain and such.
And to make matters worse...ive had to constantly catch myself or stop myself from thinking about shooting myself in the head (and other ways to end this life) lately.
So...maybe this trip will do me some good.
Then again, could make things worse as well.
*shrugs* never know...
Going with a friend to Nashville.
They asked, i said yes.
I need to get away for a bit.
Sure, it isnt far enough away or for as long as id like it to be (permanetly)...but its a start.
Its for the best as well...ive noticed my dislike of people increasing more and more with each passing day.
People id normally be fairly reasonable with, or, would be friendly with...im unfortunetly treating them badly.
Why?
Alot on my mind as of late, more than i care to have on my mind at that.
Ive noticed that i really dont give a damn about hardly anyone or anything anymore.
Distancing myself from everyone.
I dont really talk to anyone and go out even less than i normally do.
People i normally dont mind being around, i dont want to see or be around.
Things i normally enjoy, annoy the hell out of me.
Even just sitting around talking about nothing with people, irl or net-wise, i dont really like doing anymore.
I have a lot of trouble sleeping, tossing and turning or just a lot of really bad dreams.
And cause of the restless/sleeplessness, i wake up stiff/really bad shoulder-back pain and such.
And to make matters worse...ive had to constantly catch myself or stop myself from thinking about shooting myself in the head (and other ways to end this life) lately.
So...maybe this trip will do me some good.
Then again, could make things worse as well.
*shrugs* never know...