Black..
Everything seems black to me right now. That's the best way I can describe it. I've been playing an online game for about a year, now realising that it's been making me feel more depressed due to it's nature. Bascially it's a roleplay game that has a dark, medieval theme. I think it's a horrible place and it makes me miserable. But it's all I had. I don't meet friends, or do anything fun or light hearted. I turn on the television and see the news, talking about someone being killed or whatever, or turn over the channel and watch a drama - more misery portrayed. It's just sucking my soul right out of me. Everyone I see is the same. My doctor, my parents.. I can't find the light in anything. I feel like I'm black now too, and I just want to die. I don't want to eat, I don't want to study.. there is no point to my day anyday. I keep asking myself why am I still here? The drugs aren't helping me, I have to wait months for therapy which I doubt I could even get to. I'm out of options. It's pointless...