Cycles
I've just realised what I've been doing. I've been taking my meds, and thinking, okay, so I feel well enough to do without them, and would prefer to, so I reduce the dose. Then I feel really bad and go back up to where I was. It's a cycle I put myself in. Why do I do it? Maybe I'm trying to sabotage it or something, or I'm afraid. I've got to write this so I'll remember next time, just to stay on the damn drug.