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I'm trying to eat healthily. Or at least, eat when I'm hungry instead of having to stay within the scheduled time limits of when eating is allowed. I'm also trying to force myself to take one day a week off on the exercise, mostly because I know that I have exhausted my metabolism, that it is so tired. But even though I'm eating more normally than I've eaten in the past few years, I'm still absolutely obsessed with it, with all the food that goes into my mouth, with all the calories I can burn. My appointment is the 18th. We will see if they can help me, or if they'll just make it worse.
Things otherwise are good. I have to do some rearranging of my schedule to accomodate the show at the Children's Museum. I can't believe how lucky I've gotten to find something that pays so well in these tough times. Of course it is fucking up school but these opportunities rarely present themselves. Marcus Tyler is up and running. Joe is very good to me and patient with me. All of my friends adore him and he listens to me talk about things that I'm sure are very boring. I am probably not a good match for him, and I'm not always good to him but I try. Being selfish is a very difficult habit to break. I told him once that he makes me think of all those Gershwin love songs. That is the best way to describe the swoon-y, contemplative way that I regard him. He's a good one.
Things otherwise are good. I have to do some rearranging of my schedule to accomodate the show at the Children's Museum. I can't believe how lucky I've gotten to find something that pays so well in these tough times. Of course it is fucking up school but these opportunities rarely present themselves. Marcus Tyler is up and running. Joe is very good to me and patient with me. All of my friends adore him and he listens to me talk about things that I'm sure are very boring. I am probably not a good match for him, and I'm not always good to him but I try. Being selfish is a very difficult habit to break. I told him once that he makes me think of all those Gershwin love songs. That is the best way to describe the swoon-y, contemplative way that I regard him. He's a good one.