Looking for a spot as an alien/half-demon entity
People who've seen me can attest that I'm freakishly pale. Summer sun brings it out like a huge stage highlight though; my skin is translucent. I lift my feet and wonder if pressing a light against the soles would give me a free x-ray image of my bones.
Which all is to say, that I've just rewatched Angel s5 eps of Introducing Illyria, and what do I think? "I could play that without make up!" Just hook me up with some blue hair dye and I'm set! BLUE VEINY SKIN FOR THE WIN!!!
Aliens are having a strong presence otherwise, too. I had the most disturbing dream where I was in a cottage and I had people I felt I had to protect there, including children. And everytime I looked outside I could see weird humanoid shapes that came closer and multiplied until they were staring right inside and I tried to shoo them off. I woke up mid-dream because I was so disturbed by it all. It's a neat trick, forcing self awake. The only thing neater would be to take conscious control over the dream, which I've done once or twice.
Work situation: Getting desperate. I doubt this is in any way normal... It seems that I'm incapable of putting out a full day's work. I can be productive for six hours max, but after that I'm frankly useless. It feels like my brain just stops, brakes screeching, and I find myself staring at the same screen for fifteen minutes or more and can't remember what I was supposed to do.
Thank goodness most of what I do doesn't involve sitting at a desk being productive for eight hours a day. Traveling time included in work time when the work is to travel! Yey for that!
Which all reminds me: Got a phone call last week. The neuropsych clinic I've been going for, oh, six months now? Well, I got past the first preliminary. The woman who said she hasn't caught a single ADD case during her stay passed me on to the actual "puzzle tests". This means that she's concluded there's "reasonable cause" to suspect ADD instead of a million other disorders, and the final tests are just confirmation.
Which all is to say, that I've just rewatched Angel s5 eps of Introducing Illyria, and what do I think? "I could play that without make up!" Just hook me up with some blue hair dye and I'm set! BLUE VEINY SKIN FOR THE WIN!!!
Aliens are having a strong presence otherwise, too. I had the most disturbing dream where I was in a cottage and I had people I felt I had to protect there, including children. And everytime I looked outside I could see weird humanoid shapes that came closer and multiplied until they were staring right inside and I tried to shoo them off. I woke up mid-dream because I was so disturbed by it all. It's a neat trick, forcing self awake. The only thing neater would be to take conscious control over the dream, which I've done once or twice.
Work situation: Getting desperate. I doubt this is in any way normal... It seems that I'm incapable of putting out a full day's work. I can be productive for six hours max, but after that I'm frankly useless. It feels like my brain just stops, brakes screeching, and I find myself staring at the same screen for fifteen minutes or more and can't remember what I was supposed to do.
Thank goodness most of what I do doesn't involve sitting at a desk being productive for eight hours a day. Traveling time included in work time when the work is to travel! Yey for that!
Which all reminds me: Got a phone call last week. The neuropsych clinic I've been going for, oh, six months now? Well, I got past the first preliminary. The woman who said she hasn't caught a single ADD case during her stay passed me on to the actual "puzzle tests". This means that she's concluded there's "reasonable cause" to suspect ADD instead of a million other disorders, and the final tests are just confirmation.