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I miss my computer!! Iv been crazy busy and starcraft only runs on my comp, so the boy has taken it over 90% of the time lol. WE BOOKED OUR TRIP!!!! Cali in October! So October goes Nyfest, wedding, and Cali! I really can't wait. There's no way to describe how badly I want to move. After Vegas it was decided. So before the trip I called my dad to see whats going on with the whole social security thing.....to have him yell and curse at me! He went off on how it pisses him off I dont trust him and how shitty I am. Yes, me being worried about YOUR debt that is forced on ME is so wrong. I didnt even get mad at him before that, I just kinda dealed and went along. The second he yelled I told him to go fuck himself and hung up. I just wanted the idea of having one good parent, but I give up on that. He may care but hes still shitty. This, the car insurance, and just how hes treated me all summer is too much. Plus he waited till Saturday when I was in Vegas to call and leave me a rude message saying I need to get back and deal with the money issue. I called back and he yelled and cursed some more, never letting me know whats going on. I brushed it off but that night when i was wasted I was a wreck, and I still feel bad for worrying everyone. It wasnt the type of drunk mess that the next day you blame on being drunk, cause I still felt just as shitty. So I decided to be done with it and haven't spoken to my family much since. I'm not happy here and really think moving will help. I love my friends, I love New York, but just starting over seems amazing. I wont fall back into wanting my parents there cause hey! Their 2,000 miles away! DONE! I do like my job more and more and will miss it, but nothing is worth staying. Anthony was told to apply for a new job that paid 44K, and it still wasnt worth it to me. Me the crazy jew lol! I still told him to go for it but he decided against it. Wed only have to stay till next August which I could do, but his current boss went out on a limb to get him his current job--and he promised her a year of work. It would be wrong to up and go, especially just to up and go again lol. Plus there was no definite that hed get it and hed have to tell his current boss before applying--same company different division. I was more worried that if he tried and didn't get it they'd try to fire him :/ but thats how bad I want to leave, enough to trade an extra 10K lol.
Till then making the most of it though! I saw Hanson last Tuesday and they were amazing<3 I love the new cd and the videos on viso on demand<3<3 I also had my friends house warming which was super cute. They have a town house in a cute little community up in bumble new york. My navigation took me through a camp sight to get there lol. And this weekend is my first bridal shower! tis exciting.
But since I stopped talking to my parents things have been really good. gah except the apartment! still gross. The mold in the bathroom got on my razor and now I have a rash on my legs :/ But I still cant complain! Things are finally going really well.....and Cali is so soon! I cant wait to apartment hunt!! I have a few online already I wanna see and plan to find many more! Were also going to San Diego for 2 days and staying one of Anthony's high school friends. Heh I keep talking about the trip but I am so pumped! haven't been this pumped since pre-Japan! Life changing event in motion<3
and Cosplay!! I got boots! I have never been to the salvation army before but theres one a few mins from my house. I needed tim type boots and was not buying them for 100$---got them there for 8!! I need to spray pant them red but thats not hard at all :p So I got boots, arm warmers, and bangs! skirt searching tomorrow too, I thought finding a black pleather mini would be easy but am clearly wrong. I wanan try it on before buying so online is a no go. I found a huge one at Burlington coat factory I may go back for and just take in a hem up lol. Its HUGE though, but only 6$ so kinda worth it. well see how tomorrow fairs.
Till then making the most of it though! I saw Hanson last Tuesday and they were amazing<3 I love the new cd and the videos on viso on demand<3<3 I also had my friends house warming which was super cute. They have a town house in a cute little community up in bumble new york. My navigation took me through a camp sight to get there lol. And this weekend is my first bridal shower! tis exciting.
But since I stopped talking to my parents things have been really good. gah except the apartment! still gross. The mold in the bathroom got on my razor and now I have a rash on my legs :/ But I still cant complain! Things are finally going really well.....and Cali is so soon! I cant wait to apartment hunt!! I have a few online already I wanna see and plan to find many more! Were also going to San Diego for 2 days and staying one of Anthony's high school friends. Heh I keep talking about the trip but I am so pumped! haven't been this pumped since pre-Japan! Life changing event in motion<3
and Cosplay!! I got boots! I have never been to the salvation army before but theres one a few mins from my house. I needed tim type boots and was not buying them for 100$---got them there for 8!! I need to spray pant them red but thats not hard at all :p So I got boots, arm warmers, and bangs! skirt searching tomorrow too, I thought finding a black pleather mini would be easy but am clearly wrong. I wanan try it on before buying so online is a no go. I found a huge one at Burlington coat factory I may go back for and just take in a hem up lol. Its HUGE though, but only 6$ so kinda worth it. well see how tomorrow fairs.