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So I'm feeling a wide mixture of emotions.
I've been thinking some about what will happen with my living situation next year- our lease will be up come the end of July, so everything is technically up in the air after that- two of my roommates are done with their programs in december- one will be placed somewhere for an internship type thing but she doesn't know where, and the other will be getting a job somewhere. and then one (the one i feel awkward around) is still def. in nash for another year.
technically, i'm not committed to anything, but i've been planning on staying in nash after the residency is officially over, and i'm not foreseeing a change in those plans. when i moved into this house, i knew it was only definitely for a year, but most of me was hoping i would stay in it for two- because i just simply HATE moving.
Of course, then i joined a church in east nashville, and now i've been thinking about if/when i relocate i want to move to the east side of town, because i feel like it will help me feel and get connected better over there. however, those thoughts have been clouded by the fact that i HATE moving.
well, today, mal (the one i feel awkward around) brought up/asked what i was thinking about living plans next year, and that her and lauren where talking about living together with two other girls they've met here, and she was curious what i was thinking. and i told her about the possible moving to east nash but also hate the idea of moving again thing, but that i've figured i'll wait and see how things fall out and where god leads me. which is all true. and she said that she and lauren were planning on seeing what jena and i were planning on, but that ideally they would like to keep the house, but they didn't want to make anyone feel like they were being asked to leave.
but basically she wants me to.
and enter the mixed feelings. the part of me that HATES moving, and the part of me that pays the most rent anyway, and has the most stuff out here already.
and the part of me that feels like maybe i should move to east nash. but i have no idea where or with who or what that will be like, and then i wonder about all of my stuff. because i hate moving.
and the part of me that feels like i'd be happy to try a new living situation, and i'd probably be happier not living with girl i feel awkward around, and maybe even trying to find someone who also has a night shift like schedule so i don't feel alone in a house full of people.
and then i think about moving again. I hate moving. i love my stuff, but i hate moving it, because i have so much of it. i just want to be somewhere and not have to think about packing and moving for more than a year- is that too much to ask for? apparently so.
Also, i keep thinking about how come july- i'll come back from leakycon in orlando, and then have two weeks before the lease is up and the stress of going out of town and then moving at the same time.
the alternative is that i could move earlier, and one of the girls they want to move in here could move in early and pay my part of the rent unofficially.
or, they can move, and i can stay here. and find people to live with me. ugh.
I've been thinking some about what will happen with my living situation next year- our lease will be up come the end of July, so everything is technically up in the air after that- two of my roommates are done with their programs in december- one will be placed somewhere for an internship type thing but she doesn't know where, and the other will be getting a job somewhere. and then one (the one i feel awkward around) is still def. in nash for another year.
technically, i'm not committed to anything, but i've been planning on staying in nash after the residency is officially over, and i'm not foreseeing a change in those plans. when i moved into this house, i knew it was only definitely for a year, but most of me was hoping i would stay in it for two- because i just simply HATE moving.
Of course, then i joined a church in east nashville, and now i've been thinking about if/when i relocate i want to move to the east side of town, because i feel like it will help me feel and get connected better over there. however, those thoughts have been clouded by the fact that i HATE moving.
well, today, mal (the one i feel awkward around) brought up/asked what i was thinking about living plans next year, and that her and lauren where talking about living together with two other girls they've met here, and she was curious what i was thinking. and i told her about the possible moving to east nash but also hate the idea of moving again thing, but that i've figured i'll wait and see how things fall out and where god leads me. which is all true. and she said that she and lauren were planning on seeing what jena and i were planning on, but that ideally they would like to keep the house, but they didn't want to make anyone feel like they were being asked to leave.
but basically she wants me to.
and enter the mixed feelings. the part of me that HATES moving, and the part of me that pays the most rent anyway, and has the most stuff out here already.
and the part of me that feels like maybe i should move to east nash. but i have no idea where or with who or what that will be like, and then i wonder about all of my stuff. because i hate moving.
and the part of me that feels like i'd be happy to try a new living situation, and i'd probably be happier not living with girl i feel awkward around, and maybe even trying to find someone who also has a night shift like schedule so i don't feel alone in a house full of people.
and then i think about moving again. I hate moving. i love my stuff, but i hate moving it, because i have so much of it. i just want to be somewhere and not have to think about packing and moving for more than a year- is that too much to ask for? apparently so.
Also, i keep thinking about how come july- i'll come back from leakycon in orlando, and then have two weeks before the lease is up and the stress of going out of town and then moving at the same time.
the alternative is that i could move earlier, and one of the girls they want to move in here could move in early and pay my part of the rent unofficially.
or, they can move, and i can stay here. and find people to live with me. ugh.