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last night trying to go to bed pretty much sucked. i kept on having a nightmares of my nana and grampie leaving me. yea i know.. weird.. but as most of you know i dont have anymore living grandparents left. it started from yesterday morning when i got to visit their graves with my mom and aunt. it was so hard to hold it in.. and so i just bursted into tears. i miss them soo fucking much, i need them so bad right now too. they supported me in everything i did. i still have to visit them again like by myself before this saturday. im in like the worst mood right now... all i wanna do is just cry. im gonna go..