I'm going back to the start..
When I started this livejournal a few years ago, it's main purpose was so that I could constructively relieve frustration. I haven't used this to do that in a while, and while I'm sure none of you want to read about drama, I think I need to start releasing some of my anger.
First of all, I'm pretty annoyed with my job right now. I'm working a lot which is good because I'm making money, but I'm working 24/7. I missed everyone's grad parties because I couldn't have time off, and I really regret it.
I really feel like I've lost touch with all of my friends. I'm not sure why this is exactly, but I really feel like all of you guys hate me. I miss everyone. It's pretty sad that when I'm having a bad day and need to talk, or have a great sotry to share, I have noone to call anymore. Tonight was a rude awakening for me. I realized that I don't have anyone left. I was trying to find someone to go to the fireworks with, and when the only person I could think of to call didn't answer his phone right away, I about freaked out. I seriosuly went through my entire phone book in my cell and only found three people I could call: Lorrie, Cory, and Chris. I love them to death, don't get me wrong, but everyone else is important too, and they aren't there anymore. So to those of you who are pissed off at me or sick of my crap or whatever, I'm sorry for everything, and I miss you. Please don't let me go off to college without you guys being in my life.
There's other stuff going on that I can't really talk about on here, as much as I'd like to. All I can say is that I've been doing a lot of praying, but things are still just as screwed up as they've been for a while.
I'm not really sure what to say about going off to college. I'm really excited to get away and have my own life, but I'm freaking out that everything is going to come crashing down. If it does, I'm not going to be even close to ok. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.
This was kind of a short rant, but I'm still sorry to any of you who read my rambling nonsense.
First of all, I'm pretty annoyed with my job right now. I'm working a lot which is good because I'm making money, but I'm working 24/7. I missed everyone's grad parties because I couldn't have time off, and I really regret it.
I really feel like I've lost touch with all of my friends. I'm not sure why this is exactly, but I really feel like all of you guys hate me. I miss everyone. It's pretty sad that when I'm having a bad day and need to talk, or have a great sotry to share, I have noone to call anymore. Tonight was a rude awakening for me. I realized that I don't have anyone left. I was trying to find someone to go to the fireworks with, and when the only person I could think of to call didn't answer his phone right away, I about freaked out. I seriosuly went through my entire phone book in my cell and only found three people I could call: Lorrie, Cory, and Chris. I love them to death, don't get me wrong, but everyone else is important too, and they aren't there anymore. So to those of you who are pissed off at me or sick of my crap or whatever, I'm sorry for everything, and I miss you. Please don't let me go off to college without you guys being in my life.
There's other stuff going on that I can't really talk about on here, as much as I'd like to. All I can say is that I've been doing a lot of praying, but things are still just as screwed up as they've been for a while.
I'm not really sure what to say about going off to college. I'm really excited to get away and have my own life, but I'm freaking out that everything is going to come crashing down. If it does, I'm not going to be even close to ok. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.
This was kind of a short rant, but I'm still sorry to any of you who read my rambling nonsense.