honestly...
Ok, this is a warning for the following entry. If you don't want to hear bitching, then don't read it. If you do read it, then don't complain that I was bitching, because you were warned in advance.
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I'm beginning to think that everyone hates me. Lately, I've been getting that vibe. I normally wouldn't let a little thing like that get me down, but it's really intense.
Since Stu Co started having problems, it seems like everyone in my leadership class is out to get me. I don't think we've gone a week in there without someone making some sort of comment abuot me being either pwer-hungry or a cold prickly person. I don't get it. I feel really attacked, and I don't think I did anything to provoke this. I'm sorry if I did. I guess I'm a bit confused at why my so called "friends" are starting to attack me. It's pretty frustrating. I would honestly like to know if these things are true, and if I'm really the huge bitch that everyone makes me out to be. Seriously, be honest with me. I want to know. I would rather hear straight out to my face that I suck than in front of an entire class of people. I was so hurt by what was said, I had to fight not to cry. I NEVER cry. I've been friends with Stacey for a very long time, and she's seen me cry twice. Once when my parents told me we were moving back to Grand Rapids(which didn't happen) and the other time when I was scared shitless this summer.
Anyways, I feel like absolute crap right now. If I'm honestly that mean to everyone, I'm sorry, I didn't realize that I'm a mean person at heart. Last time I checked, I was more worried about making sure that Stu Co is better for the next generation so that they can have as much fun and success as we did throughout our high school years then trying to steal power and plotting to overtake the world...Oh yes, supervillian Erin is at it again, everyone protect your precious egos.
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I'm beginning to think that everyone hates me. Lately, I've been getting that vibe. I normally wouldn't let a little thing like that get me down, but it's really intense.
Since Stu Co started having problems, it seems like everyone in my leadership class is out to get me. I don't think we've gone a week in there without someone making some sort of comment abuot me being either pwer-hungry or a cold prickly person. I don't get it. I feel really attacked, and I don't think I did anything to provoke this. I'm sorry if I did. I guess I'm a bit confused at why my so called "friends" are starting to attack me. It's pretty frustrating. I would honestly like to know if these things are true, and if I'm really the huge bitch that everyone makes me out to be. Seriously, be honest with me. I want to know. I would rather hear straight out to my face that I suck than in front of an entire class of people. I was so hurt by what was said, I had to fight not to cry. I NEVER cry. I've been friends with Stacey for a very long time, and she's seen me cry twice. Once when my parents told me we were moving back to Grand Rapids(which didn't happen) and the other time when I was scared shitless this summer.
Anyways, I feel like absolute crap right now. If I'm honestly that mean to everyone, I'm sorry, I didn't realize that I'm a mean person at heart. Last time I checked, I was more worried about making sure that Stu Co is better for the next generation so that they can have as much fun and success as we did throughout our high school years then trying to steal power and plotting to overtake the world...Oh yes, supervillian Erin is at it again, everyone protect your precious egos.
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