arrhythmia
Title: arrhythmia
Genre: fluff, romance
Pairing: hunhan, side kaisoo
Word count: ~2k
Summary: Sehun thinks too much into things, and Luhan isn't helping at all.
You make me glow
but I cover up; won't let it show
so i'm putting my defenses up
'cause I don't wanna fall in love
if I ever did that, I think I'd have a heart attack
Oh Sehun had always been a stickler for schedules and fixed timings, free time juxtaposed with black forbidding lines. At 6:30 on the dot, his alarm clock would ring. It takes him ten minutes to freshen up, and five minutes to dress. Half a minute to stuff his things into his bag, and another half to put on his shoes. The lift comes within two minutes, and he's walking out of the lift by 6:50. He stops by the nearest coffeeshop for his daily fix, and sets off for the bus stop by 7.
Sehun's life has always been scheduled, ruled by the imaginary lines dictating to him what to do at what time.
That was until Luhan tumbled into his life.
*
The day Sehun met Luhan, Sehun was running late, a first for him. Sehun makes a dash to the bus stop, even forgoing his coffee, only to find that the bus had driven off already. Sehun stands under the cool shelter and inwardly sighs. He's lost in his own thoughts and scolding himself for waking late when a mop of blonde hair smacks into him.
"I'm so sorry! Didn't see you there." The man- wait, no-boy- says, smiling. Sehun blinked. At that moment, he could have sworn that the boy glowed as he apologised. Sehun wonders if he was seeing things as the aftereffects of being thrown off his schedule because that glow was, apparently, contagious and he felt like he was glowing too, emitting warm orange hues.
This must be my guardian angel in human form or something, Sehun thinks fleetingly.
He smiles slightly and opens his mouth to talk before he realises what he was about to talk to a complete stranger, something his mother taught him to never do. He quickly pushes down the feeling and forces his expression back to a blank slate. The boy had large eyes set in a thin face, with blonde hair framing it loosely.
The eyes, Sehun thinks. The boy's eyes were piercing, seemingly endless, peering into the deepest recesses, every nook and cranny of Sehun's mind and soul. Suddenly, the eyes narrow into little half-moons and the boy pipes up. "Are you going to school?"
Sehun realises he was staring at the boy's wide bambi-like eyes and quickly averts them. "Yup." Sehun has no choice but to reply.
"I'm a new student at the uni so could you bring me around or something?"
Sehun was about to say no, but Bambi Eyes looked so harmless and confused that, out of the goodness of Sehun's heart (or so he thinks), he finds himself saying 'Okay'.
*
On the bus to the uni, Sehun learns that Bambi Eyes' real name is Luhan. He likes football and thinks of himself as manly, to which Sehun snorts and Luhan socks him in the shoulder, rather painfully. Luhan reveals that he is 23, a transfer from China and takes psychology. He then goes on to talk about what he ate for breakfast.
All Sehun can think of while Luhan rambles on is how nice his eyes are.
*
It occurs to Sehun that Luhan tumbling into him the second time they meet should not have happened - because they are supposed to be two lines on a graph, meeting once but then never again - but it did. The second time, Sehun is studying in the campus library, blasting music into his ears and cramming biology terms into his head. He comes around to the heart and arrhythmia when a stack of books sails by, barely missing his face, and a familiar blonde head crashes into his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry!" Sehun hears Luhan apologizing once again.
Is he always like this? Sehun wonders.
"Uhh yeah ... I tend to be clumsy." A light pink dusts Luhan's cheekbones and Sehun realises he wondered that question out loud. Sehun mumbles an answer that he himself is not sure of, as he observes the way Luhan seems to be glowing again.
Luhan picks up his books hastily. Unknown to himself, Sehun reaches out a hand and grabs the sleeve of Luhan's shirt. Luhan turns around, eyes full of questions.
Sehun's mouth suddenly goes dry as he stares up at Luhan, his mind a total blank.
Sehun tears his gaze away from Luhan in order to phrase a coherent answer. "Uhhh .. would you like to study with me?" is the first thing that pops out of his mouth. Sehun mentally smacks himself after that. You aren't even taking the same subject, idiot!
Surprisingly, Luhan agrees. As he hands Sehun his books so that he can sit down, their fingertips brush, and Sehun feels himself smiling slightly, his being glowing, brightening like a lit candle.
Sehun squashes the unknown feeling down.
*
As Sehun looks at his notes on the heart again, he puts to memory the definition of arrhythmia, etching the words letter by letter into his memory. Arrhythmia: an irregular heartbeat or abnormal heart rhythm. Symptoms include: palpitations, dizziness, fainting, shortness of breath and chest discomfort.
Sehun's mind wanders off and he briefly wonders if he has arrhythmia when he accidentally brushes Luhan's hand, or when Luhan's shoulder touches his as they sit side by side against the tall windows in the library.
*
"One chocolate bubble tea." Sehun says to the girl at the counter. She smiles and hands him his change along with his receipt, and motions for him to move to the side. Sehun shuffles over and stares blankly at the large menu hanging over the counter, mentally noting to stop buying chocolate and try out some other flavours next time.
A poke in his left shoulder shakes him out of his reverie.
"Hey, didn't expect to see you here." Luhan is all eyesmiles and bubbling friendliness, with that ever-present glow around him.
"I come here all the time, can't resist chocolate bubble tea." Sehun cannot help but smile back hesitantly.
"Oh gosh you're the only person who understands chocolate bubble tea and you're going to be my bubble tea and study date from now on." Luhan declares with finality.
"Sure." Sehun replies, feeling warm inside. He's pretty sure he won't be trying out other flavours the next time.
*
"Sehun-ah, buy me that." Luhan whines to Sehun as they stroll along, sipping from a shared cup of bubble tea.
Sehun takes one look at the gigantic Stitch stuffed toy and rolls his eyes. "Hyung, you're not five anymore."
"But it's cute! Don't you agree?" Luhan runs up to it and squishes his cheek with the Stitch's, pouting at the younger.
But not as much as you, Sehun catches his tongue just before the words have the chance to spill out.
*
Sehun can't imagine what his life would be like without Luhan anymore. From total strangers to best friends, Luhan and his glow had somehow appeared in his life so much that Sehun finds it weird not having Luhan with him.
*
"Luhan hyung!" Sehun calls out, waving at the figure curled up on a bench. Luhan doesn't get up and wave back like he usually does. Sehun's a little worried, and he runs over. Luhan's sitting with arms wrapped around his legs, his eyes puffy and red.
"What happened?" Sehun asks carefully. Luhan chooses not to say anything, and instead buries his head into his knees, sniffling slightly.
Sehun feels a fissure opening up in his heart, slowly cracking it open. He decides to drag Luhan back to his house, where they watch movies in silence, Sehun looking at the characters but not really following the plot.
Luhan just puts his head on Sehun's shoulder and promptly falls asleep, leaving Sehun to finish the popcorn on his own.
*
Luhan has his way of worming into Sehun's heart, squeezing through Sehun's defenses, and then planting himself there without any intention of getting out.
Sehun's slightly uncomfortable with that, and he consults Jongin.
After listening to Sehun talk on and on about Luhan, Jongin concludes with a sentence that leaves Sehun cold with shock.
"You're in love, dumbass."
Sehun continues to be in a daze even after Jongin leaves, allowing Sehun to be alone with his thoughts.
*
Having come to the realization, Sehun doesn't know what to do. He avoids Luhan like the plague, being hyperaware of how his heart seems to beat erratically whenever Luhan is near. Luhan tries to talk to him, but Sehun can't meet Luhan's doe-like eyes, can't talk to Luhan properly without feeling like he can't breathe.
Sehun notices when Luhan starts talking to Jongin, and the bolt of dark green shooting through his gut is almost more than he can bear.
*
The next day, Sehun's in a classroom where Kyungsoo asked to meet him. He's pacing around, worrying about his exam the next day. Kyungsoo's already ten minutes late, and Sehun considers whether or not to just leave, because Kyungsoo can always contact him another time. Just then, the door opens and Jongin pushes a wide-eyed Luhan in. Luhan stumbles slightly, and Sehun feels his heart constrict. The door slams shut behind him.
"What. Are you doing here." Sehun chokes out, backing into a corner of the classroom.
"Why have you been ignoring me?" Luhan straightens and counters him with another question.
"What did I do, Sehun? You just shut down and locked me out, and I don't even know why. I really miss our bubble tea dates and studying together and just hanging around doing nothing -" Luhan's eyebrows are furrowed, and Sehun wants to press his finger to the crease between them.
"It's not that. It's just ..."
"Just what? You suddenly closed yourself off. I also asked Jongin if anything happened to you, but he said nothing happened." Luhan steps closer to Sehun until they're facing each other. Sehun has to look down in order not to get lost in Luhan's eyes, rendering him unable to get out.
"Or do you just want me to leave you alone? I can do that, if it makes you less closed off -" Luhan barely has any time to finish talking when Sehun tugs on Luhan's tie, causing Luhan to trip forward and make their lips connect. Luhan squeaks in surprise, and Sehun pushes Luhan away by the shoulders gently.
"I - uh - like you?" Sehun awkwardly mumbles, still looking down. He doesn't see Luhan reach a hand out to tilt Sehun's head up, only sees Luhan's face come nearer and nearer until their noses touch. Sehun scrunches his nose, and Luhan rubs their noses together.
"Yah you idiot, I like you too. So can you stop ignoring me?"
*
Sehun's pretty sure that he gets arrhythmia when Luhan is around.
Genre: fluff, romance
Pairing: hunhan, side kaisoo
Word count: ~2k
Summary: Sehun thinks too much into things, and Luhan isn't helping at all.
You make me glow
but I cover up; won't let it show
so i'm putting my defenses up
'cause I don't wanna fall in love
if I ever did that, I think I'd have a heart attack
Oh Sehun had always been a stickler for schedules and fixed timings, free time juxtaposed with black forbidding lines. At 6:30 on the dot, his alarm clock would ring. It takes him ten minutes to freshen up, and five minutes to dress. Half a minute to stuff his things into his bag, and another half to put on his shoes. The lift comes within two minutes, and he's walking out of the lift by 6:50. He stops by the nearest coffeeshop for his daily fix, and sets off for the bus stop by 7.
Sehun's life has always been scheduled, ruled by the imaginary lines dictating to him what to do at what time.
That was until Luhan tumbled into his life.
*
The day Sehun met Luhan, Sehun was running late, a first for him. Sehun makes a dash to the bus stop, even forgoing his coffee, only to find that the bus had driven off already. Sehun stands under the cool shelter and inwardly sighs. He's lost in his own thoughts and scolding himself for waking late when a mop of blonde hair smacks into him.
"I'm so sorry! Didn't see you there." The man- wait, no-boy- says, smiling. Sehun blinked. At that moment, he could have sworn that the boy glowed as he apologised. Sehun wonders if he was seeing things as the aftereffects of being thrown off his schedule because that glow was, apparently, contagious and he felt like he was glowing too, emitting warm orange hues.
This must be my guardian angel in human form or something, Sehun thinks fleetingly.
He smiles slightly and opens his mouth to talk before he realises what he was about to talk to a complete stranger, something his mother taught him to never do. He quickly pushes down the feeling and forces his expression back to a blank slate. The boy had large eyes set in a thin face, with blonde hair framing it loosely.
The eyes, Sehun thinks. The boy's eyes were piercing, seemingly endless, peering into the deepest recesses, every nook and cranny of Sehun's mind and soul. Suddenly, the eyes narrow into little half-moons and the boy pipes up. "Are you going to school?"
Sehun realises he was staring at the boy's wide bambi-like eyes and quickly averts them. "Yup." Sehun has no choice but to reply.
"I'm a new student at the uni so could you bring me around or something?"
Sehun was about to say no, but Bambi Eyes looked so harmless and confused that, out of the goodness of Sehun's heart (or so he thinks), he finds himself saying 'Okay'.
*
On the bus to the uni, Sehun learns that Bambi Eyes' real name is Luhan. He likes football and thinks of himself as manly, to which Sehun snorts and Luhan socks him in the shoulder, rather painfully. Luhan reveals that he is 23, a transfer from China and takes psychology. He then goes on to talk about what he ate for breakfast.
All Sehun can think of while Luhan rambles on is how nice his eyes are.
*
It occurs to Sehun that Luhan tumbling into him the second time they meet should not have happened - because they are supposed to be two lines on a graph, meeting once but then never again - but it did. The second time, Sehun is studying in the campus library, blasting music into his ears and cramming biology terms into his head. He comes around to the heart and arrhythmia when a stack of books sails by, barely missing his face, and a familiar blonde head crashes into his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry!" Sehun hears Luhan apologizing once again.
Is he always like this? Sehun wonders.
"Uhh yeah ... I tend to be clumsy." A light pink dusts Luhan's cheekbones and Sehun realises he wondered that question out loud. Sehun mumbles an answer that he himself is not sure of, as he observes the way Luhan seems to be glowing again.
Luhan picks up his books hastily. Unknown to himself, Sehun reaches out a hand and grabs the sleeve of Luhan's shirt. Luhan turns around, eyes full of questions.
Sehun's mouth suddenly goes dry as he stares up at Luhan, his mind a total blank.
Sehun tears his gaze away from Luhan in order to phrase a coherent answer. "Uhhh .. would you like to study with me?" is the first thing that pops out of his mouth. Sehun mentally smacks himself after that. You aren't even taking the same subject, idiot!
Surprisingly, Luhan agrees. As he hands Sehun his books so that he can sit down, their fingertips brush, and Sehun feels himself smiling slightly, his being glowing, brightening like a lit candle.
Sehun squashes the unknown feeling down.
*
As Sehun looks at his notes on the heart again, he puts to memory the definition of arrhythmia, etching the words letter by letter into his memory. Arrhythmia: an irregular heartbeat or abnormal heart rhythm. Symptoms include: palpitations, dizziness, fainting, shortness of breath and chest discomfort.
Sehun's mind wanders off and he briefly wonders if he has arrhythmia when he accidentally brushes Luhan's hand, or when Luhan's shoulder touches his as they sit side by side against the tall windows in the library.
*
"One chocolate bubble tea." Sehun says to the girl at the counter. She smiles and hands him his change along with his receipt, and motions for him to move to the side. Sehun shuffles over and stares blankly at the large menu hanging over the counter, mentally noting to stop buying chocolate and try out some other flavours next time.
A poke in his left shoulder shakes him out of his reverie.
"Hey, didn't expect to see you here." Luhan is all eyesmiles and bubbling friendliness, with that ever-present glow around him.
"I come here all the time, can't resist chocolate bubble tea." Sehun cannot help but smile back hesitantly.
"Oh gosh you're the only person who understands chocolate bubble tea and you're going to be my bubble tea and study date from now on." Luhan declares with finality.
"Sure." Sehun replies, feeling warm inside. He's pretty sure he won't be trying out other flavours the next time.
*
"Sehun-ah, buy me that." Luhan whines to Sehun as they stroll along, sipping from a shared cup of bubble tea.
Sehun takes one look at the gigantic Stitch stuffed toy and rolls his eyes. "Hyung, you're not five anymore."
"But it's cute! Don't you agree?" Luhan runs up to it and squishes his cheek with the Stitch's, pouting at the younger.
But not as much as you, Sehun catches his tongue just before the words have the chance to spill out.
*
Sehun can't imagine what his life would be like without Luhan anymore. From total strangers to best friends, Luhan and his glow had somehow appeared in his life so much that Sehun finds it weird not having Luhan with him.
*
"Luhan hyung!" Sehun calls out, waving at the figure curled up on a bench. Luhan doesn't get up and wave back like he usually does. Sehun's a little worried, and he runs over. Luhan's sitting with arms wrapped around his legs, his eyes puffy and red.
"What happened?" Sehun asks carefully. Luhan chooses not to say anything, and instead buries his head into his knees, sniffling slightly.
Sehun feels a fissure opening up in his heart, slowly cracking it open. He decides to drag Luhan back to his house, where they watch movies in silence, Sehun looking at the characters but not really following the plot.
Luhan just puts his head on Sehun's shoulder and promptly falls asleep, leaving Sehun to finish the popcorn on his own.
*
Luhan has his way of worming into Sehun's heart, squeezing through Sehun's defenses, and then planting himself there without any intention of getting out.
Sehun's slightly uncomfortable with that, and he consults Jongin.
After listening to Sehun talk on and on about Luhan, Jongin concludes with a sentence that leaves Sehun cold with shock.
"You're in love, dumbass."
Sehun continues to be in a daze even after Jongin leaves, allowing Sehun to be alone with his thoughts.
*
Having come to the realization, Sehun doesn't know what to do. He avoids Luhan like the plague, being hyperaware of how his heart seems to beat erratically whenever Luhan is near. Luhan tries to talk to him, but Sehun can't meet Luhan's doe-like eyes, can't talk to Luhan properly without feeling like he can't breathe.
Sehun notices when Luhan starts talking to Jongin, and the bolt of dark green shooting through his gut is almost more than he can bear.
*
The next day, Sehun's in a classroom where Kyungsoo asked to meet him. He's pacing around, worrying about his exam the next day. Kyungsoo's already ten minutes late, and Sehun considers whether or not to just leave, because Kyungsoo can always contact him another time. Just then, the door opens and Jongin pushes a wide-eyed Luhan in. Luhan stumbles slightly, and Sehun feels his heart constrict. The door slams shut behind him.
"What. Are you doing here." Sehun chokes out, backing into a corner of the classroom.
"Why have you been ignoring me?" Luhan straightens and counters him with another question.
"What did I do, Sehun? You just shut down and locked me out, and I don't even know why. I really miss our bubble tea dates and studying together and just hanging around doing nothing -" Luhan's eyebrows are furrowed, and Sehun wants to press his finger to the crease between them.
"It's not that. It's just ..."
"Just what? You suddenly closed yourself off. I also asked Jongin if anything happened to you, but he said nothing happened." Luhan steps closer to Sehun until they're facing each other. Sehun has to look down in order not to get lost in Luhan's eyes, rendering him unable to get out.
"Or do you just want me to leave you alone? I can do that, if it makes you less closed off -" Luhan barely has any time to finish talking when Sehun tugs on Luhan's tie, causing Luhan to trip forward and make their lips connect. Luhan squeaks in surprise, and Sehun pushes Luhan away by the shoulders gently.
"I - uh - like you?" Sehun awkwardly mumbles, still looking down. He doesn't see Luhan reach a hand out to tilt Sehun's head up, only sees Luhan's face come nearer and nearer until their noses touch. Sehun scrunches his nose, and Luhan rubs their noses together.
"Yah you idiot, I like you too. So can you stop ignoring me?"
*
Sehun's pretty sure that he gets arrhythmia when Luhan is around.