the important part of this is the end.
there is a constant narrative in my head.
this is what i did today:
went to class
went to yoga
fucked around
aka nothing. I wish i could say something better than that. today i learned.... what?
I constantly have the urge to make myself throw up. as if that will decide anything.
But these days I feel stronger than ever.
Here it is. I am in conflict. there are so many. i am conservativeliberal. I am happysad.
i am gaystraight. seriously guys. am i gay? I would tell you I don't care, but it's consumes my every hour. AMIAMIAMIAMIAMI? and I must not be if I have to worry about it? but why am i worried about it. Maybe its just spring because i think back to last spring. but but butterflies. AM I GAY? DO YOU THINK I COULD BE? HOW CAN I BE SO UNSURE?????????????????????
really, im just sad.
I couldnt decide whether to post this or not. so i did. and ill delete. really. im in turmoil.
this is what i did today:
went to class
went to yoga
fucked around
aka nothing. I wish i could say something better than that. today i learned.... what?
I constantly have the urge to make myself throw up. as if that will decide anything.
But these days I feel stronger than ever.
Here it is. I am in conflict. there are so many. i am conservativeliberal. I am happysad.
i am gaystraight. seriously guys. am i gay? I would tell you I don't care, but it's consumes my every hour. AMIAMIAMIAMIAMI? and I must not be if I have to worry about it? but why am i worried about it. Maybe its just spring because i think back to last spring. but but butterflies. AM I GAY? DO YOU THINK I COULD BE? HOW CAN I BE SO UNSURE?????????????????????
really, im just sad.
I couldnt decide whether to post this or not. so i did. and ill delete. really. im in turmoil.