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So I have a bad habit of not posting for a while or posting things of little value. Sorry.
Brian is leaving early, early Monday morning ( I would personally classify it as Sunday night but that's the Navy for you). At this point I'm not sure exactly how I feel about him leaving. I've been showering a lot and that is where I actually do most of my thinking. And the thinking has made me wonder if he is really who I want to be with. Granted, I won't really be with anyone for quite a while but that isn't exactly the point. When I fall alseep at night, it isn't his face that I see before I pass out. It makes me worry that I may be focusing on the past and that is preventing me from moving forward. Or it could be that I did find out what was right for me and I screwed that up.
I'm not sure what I want. And I don't think that is fair to anyone, least of all myself. I know that sounds selfish but I would like to know that I have finally figured out how I want to live my life and what I want from my life. Or at the very least my romantic life.
Brian is leaving early, early Monday morning ( I would personally classify it as Sunday night but that's the Navy for you). At this point I'm not sure exactly how I feel about him leaving. I've been showering a lot and that is where I actually do most of my thinking. And the thinking has made me wonder if he is really who I want to be with. Granted, I won't really be with anyone for quite a while but that isn't exactly the point. When I fall alseep at night, it isn't his face that I see before I pass out. It makes me worry that I may be focusing on the past and that is preventing me from moving forward. Or it could be that I did find out what was right for me and I screwed that up.
I'm not sure what I want. And I don't think that is fair to anyone, least of all myself. I know that sounds selfish but I would like to know that I have finally figured out how I want to live my life and what I want from my life. Or at the very least my romantic life.