My heart is a mess
Am I being too demanding? I feel like my concerns are valid... Yet I second guess myself too much. I want to let go (right now and for the long term), I also want to hold on (for the long term...)
I feel like I'm at it again - asking and being vulnerable because I may be judged/rejected for my opinion. But hey, I guess that's what a relationship is supposed to be like right?
Is there another way? To hold this relationship off? Do I really want him out of my life? Yet is it selfish for me to be thinking about all this when he's busy working hard - but then who is he working so hard for?
I really should talk to him about this. Who knows what will happen? Yet God is good to both of us even if it's purely pain at first.
Thank God for his commitment and faithfulness.