Alotta fun and a lil crazy.
I have been having so much fun lately. my mom is home and I'm lovin it. We have been getting along great. This week has been just great. Anyways, we went canoeing on Monday and that was fun. I forgot what we did on tues and wed. I think I had to work. And then on Thursday we went to Shadow Lake... drank a lil bit and then stayed the night over at my ma's. Me, Sheena, Calin, and Bek. Nicole and ashley had to go home. Yeah, Thursday i picked up my car in Tulsa and did a lil shopping w/bek and my mom and we got my nose pierced and bought some alcohol. Then on friday we i went to the movies and olive garden w/Rob and Dallas and then we drank at my ma's and I guess I always end up calling Davey when I'm drunk so the next day he informs me that I said "do you want me to come park at the end of your driveway?" lol and he said no was tired so then I called him a compulsive liar and an asshole. Don't know about that one but whatever. Then on Saturday we went to the baseball game and then came back (oh yea, I got a ticket) and went to calin's and she wasn't there and we drank a lil bit and then Kyle had called susan so when calin got there she was in trouble and everyone had to leave so then we went to beks and me and bek drank alot. I drank my ketchup bottle (lol) of bacardi and then 3 shots of parrot bay and a half shotgunned beer. Bek had like 7 shots of parrot bay and shotgunned 4 and 1/2 beers. lol she's great. and then me and jesse camped out in donalds room all night and made out and talked and didn't sleep. he didn't let me sleep :(. And then Logan and Bek had fun and Trevor was bitchin about being all alone out in the living room. he was annoying me cause I was having fun. And I have a crush on jesse defintley. he's a cutie but i don't know what he thinks about it and I don't know about him and Lacy. So i definitley end up calling Davey twice that night and he got really pissed the first time and told me that 3 o clock in the morning wasn't the time. and then I called him at 625 and left a message telling him that I liked Jesse. I think that got to him. Oh yeah, Jesse told me that Davey had been listening to Dashboard cause he was depressed bout me. What is that? And then davey told jesse that if he ever had a chance to do anything w/me he should cause "I'm fun" So. And then the hypocrite calls me Sunday night at two in the morning to piss me off and get me back. well congrats, you fuckin did. So I worked all day sunday. Oh yeah, Wednesday after I worked I went to calin's and there was alot of ppl there and me, nicole, calin and kyle got in an internet fight w/Sarah Riley and Shayla Crawford. It was fantastic. And this morning I ended up sleeping through speed camp and softball and that really sucks cause it was mandatory to be there so I'll be in trouble. But bek and I got our hair done today and we both like it. I have purple underneath and some brownlites up top cause i was a lil too blonde. And then tonight me and bek hung out w/simp, chris, logan and mark at chris's. and now im home and I can't sleep. i was going good there for a while and not drinking and such but then this week i screwed it up and drank and didn't go to chruch and got my nose pierced so I'm thinking I should probably calm it down a lil bit. im headed in that skanky direction where I don't wanna go. And I like working days cause I made like 70 last tues. so I am working wed and thurs this week. And i have been gone so much my dad misses me and he left a note today saying "good to have you home" lol. whatever. I like having lots of stuff to do and having lots of fun. I finally finished bek's present and gave it to her! She liked it and I'm glad cause i worked hard and it turned out quite well i might add. I have a gift for nicole but apparently we're having some trouble right now b/c zach told nicole i said we weren't friends anymore but i didn't say that and i asked him aobut it tonite and he said he didn't tell her that but whatever its really stupid and now she might not invite me to her birthday. ahhh crazy. i'll always love that girl but if she doesn't like me now b/c of what someone said, what can you do? Thats how I see it. And she told me to go fuck myself. That was nice, so I informed her later that I thought fucking myself was fantastic. She betted it was. Anyhoo I just have bunches to say. I can't sleep right now cause I am feeling yeast infectionous and it really sucks but the weather is great so hot and not cloudy all week so I am gonna lay out all day tomorrow after i get to wake up for fun softball and speed camp. i really dread going to bed knowing that i have to wake up for that shit. its just 3 hours of work out in the hot and IT SUCKS. speed camp is fine alone then you have to practice for two hours and it sucks when you suck and your nervous all the time like me! I dont' know what to do about simp cause he likes me and I somewhat like him and then I really have a gay crush on Jesse but I dont know what he thinks and he probably just wanted to make out w/me. but he did tell bek that it was awkard b/c of davey so understandable. lalala. yeah i read my old journals (like real ones) from middle school the other day and I WAS A MESS. thats why I am scared to do somethings now fearing that I will go back to how I was. Thats why I definitley need to calm myself. Like wow that was weird to read. Jeezums. Rob is leaving aug.18 for NSU and we've been hangin out kinda, so i think i am gonna throw him a going-away party. Me and him are just cool for us to hang out. I like it. Well i guess I feel better since I have given an update, although I need to give em more often so its not all so much at once and not real detailed. School is almost starting and THAT SUCKS. Oh yeah, and our first game is this friday. Thats scary. I hope theres not a JV game and then i wont have to play. Crazy. Maybe i wasn't cut out for softball. yeah, i wasn't but its fun w/all the ppl and stuff so screw whoever knows I suck. I don't needa be a lazy ass. Alright, Im shuttin up! Peace.