yeah, i'm over-updating
i've been trying to be really confident lately. it's working out really badly.
the only way i can think of gaining confidence is to pretend to be confident, then i figured if i pretended long enough it would just happen.
so i just feel like embarrassed all the time & like i'm behind this thick shell crying.
idk, i want to cry like all the time. i feel like crying right now & i don't even know why.
i'm trying to feel pretty, too. ugh, this is too hard. idk, i convinced myself that my boyfriend & all my friends & everyone else hates me. i guess that's really unhealthy.
I CAN BE SHY & HAVE REALLY LOW CONFIDENCE.
I CAN SEPARATE MYSELF FROM EVERYONE.
I AM GOING TO GO CRY IN MY ROOM RIGHT NOW & THAT'S FINE, TOO.
the only way i can think of gaining confidence is to pretend to be confident, then i figured if i pretended long enough it would just happen.
so i just feel like embarrassed all the time & like i'm behind this thick shell crying.
idk, i want to cry like all the time. i feel like crying right now & i don't even know why.
i'm trying to feel pretty, too. ugh, this is too hard. idk, i convinced myself that my boyfriend & all my friends & everyone else hates me. i guess that's really unhealthy.
I CAN BE SHY & HAVE REALLY LOW CONFIDENCE.
I CAN SEPARATE MYSELF FROM EVERYONE.
I AM GOING TO GO CRY IN MY ROOM RIGHT NOW & THAT'S FINE, TOO.