LOL DO NOT JUDGE
Written for
lilrand0m-chik For the Dreamwidth Christmas Meme.
I saw hers, and i thought id give it a short at Urata x Nissy.
Man. this was something new. I tried to keep it good.
Merry Christmas and Happy holidays everyone<3
ALSO APPARENTLY THERES HUNDREDS OF TYPOS IM NOT WILLING TO GO AND FIX EVERY SINGLE ONE.
SO UH. HOPEFULLY YOU IGNORE THOSE.
Naoya was band leader for a reason, he was smart, the oldest, the most reasonable, most understanding. He was just the best for the job. It didn't hurt having a nice voice and kind personality as well. He also cared for his band. He loved them, 5 years together just made them like a family for the first few years they even lived together. He tended to notice quickly when everyone of them was in an off mood. Also the first one to try to fix it, whether it was because he was the leader, or he saw them all as siblings he hated seeing them upset. Even worse he hated seeing them hurt or injured. Which is why he was so confused how he missed all this.
Hidaka had been slipping him hints the past few weeks that Nissy wasn’t feeling himself since a little before his birthday. Which scared Naoya considering Nissy's birthday was September and it was entering December. But so much came up around the first few hints and due to his birthday and trip to LA. Naoya never really got to check it out himself. When he had returned from LA though, it was obvious something was really wrong.
Nissy avoided him, every single chance he got, he avoided looking, talking, seeing, even texting Naoya. In all 5 years with him, Nissy never avoided him like this. Sure they didn’t talk when they were arguing over something, or Nissy was in a mood. But nothing this drastic as to change his schedule simply to avoid Naoya.
He was poundering over all this while scrolling through his Iphone and eating dinner. It hurt a lot that Nissy was avoiding him like this. He wouldn’t tell anyone but Nissy was the one he cared about most in the group. Weather the love was like a brother, or friend, or maybe possibly something more the pain of Nissy doing this hurt all the same. But that’s when he got the text. It was from Hidaka marked urgent, which was rare Hidaka barely texted him unless it was work related. It simply said call me, no details, nothing just call me. Hitting call he frowned putting his food down he stood up.
“Hey” Naoya said when the line finally clicked signaling and answer“You sa-”
“Is Nissy with you?” Hidaka demanded quickly interrupting him.
“Obviously not” he snapped annoyed “I haven’t seen him for a few days he's still avoiding me” Naoya frowned, Hidaka was the one closest to Nissy they were best friends always together, why would he ask Naoya? “Whats wrong?”
“I came by to pick up some CD's I lent him that I needed to work with, and his door was unlocked and somewhat open, his place is trashed. He left a note that he went for a walk next to the CD's though...but his jacket is still on the table.” he took a breath “The place is horrible Naoya, and his phone is here to. He's been so off lately. I’m really worried I thought id ask you since your place is closest”
“No, call the others I'm on my way over now” hanging up he slipped his boots on and locked the door to his apartment quickly behind him. Nissys house wasn’t a far walk, and an ever shorter drive. He was there in under 10 minutes jumping the steps two at a time, he turned the corner nearly running into Hidaka who was standing against the wall biting his knuckle.
“Hey, has he come back?” Hidaka looked up shaking his head 'no' gaze returning to the floor. The others came over to after Hidaka's call all worried over there friend. A whole night spent searching calling people, looking at places. Turned up no Nissy. They checked with all his phone contacts, everyone that could possibly know where the young man had gone. And no one had seen him.
Naoya finally had to call it to a stop when it was getting to late “If he doesn’t show up to work tomorrow. Were calling someone ok” Naoya said softly. “This isn’t good. But maybe hes with a friend we don’t know. He may just be having a bad few weeks and really need to escape. Go home, come back to work tomorrow. We will go from there” The others nodded sadly leaving slowly.
Right before Hidaka left he frowned looking at Naoya shaking his head he ran after Shuuta. Naoya almost called to ask what that was about but he decided he didn’t want to know, sighing sadly he got his stuff together. Digging behind the counter he grabbed the spare key, locking Nissy's door he placed it under the mat.
He drove home in silence, Worry gnawing at his insides. It was sicking Nissy just disappeared like that, and had been also avoiding him. His mind was to caught up in everything he was failing to see any signs Nissy had gave him. Going inside he began to get ready for bed, he couldn’t let this effect his work. He had a job to do as the leader. After a long shower he made some tea setting his home on his couch watching one of the random drama channels. He fell asleep soon after, Nissy still on his mind when he did.
A loud knocking at his door startled him from his sleep. Looking at his clock he saw it was nearing 3AM. Stretching he was ready to yell at whoever it was to fuck off and die before opening the door he looked through the small opening.
Black hair and a huddled familiar figure was what he saw. Throwing the door open he was faced with a very cold, tired, and crying Nishijima.
“Oh my god where have you been” Naoya said quickly hugging him. Skin brushed skin and Naoya snapped back. “Your freezing” He said softly realizing Nissy was only in a shirt and some pants. The memory of Hidaka telling him Nissys jacket was left behind came back. Nissy said nothing his head down as he shivered sniffing every so often. “Inside inside now, my god. We spent forever looking for you. Hidaka went to your place for his CD's he said your apartment was trashed, you’ve never let it get messy” Naoya rambled on forcing Nissy to sit on the couch, he fetched one of his jackets and a blanket. “Here” Nissy took them slowly covering himself up. Before going back over Naoya turned his heat up kneeling next to Nissy.
“Are you ok” he asked softly realizing Nissy hadn’t said anything.
“I couldn’t get in the door was locked...”
“Key was under the mat” Naoya said softly.
“Oh....” Nissy mumbled shivering again.
“Where did you go?”
“I walked...around” a whisper.
“......For 8 hours?” just a nod. Naoya wanted to yell, to hit him for worrying all of them like that. But something told him not to, that deep down there was something really wrong with Nissy and he needed to fix it or the band may begin to suffer deeply. He could see the lack of sleep and food showing in the smaller man. He didn’t like it.
“Nissy what is going on, your avoiding me, your not talking as much, your turning down interviews. And the ones you do do are just off. What is going on with you right now. Please just tell me, im worried about you”
“You” Nissy said curling up and away from Naoya, who blinked confused. But then it started to make sense to him.
“Me? What did I do? Please” He asked softly, he needed to know what started it.
“You left...” Nissy mumbled. Then took a breathe he looked up tears falling “You left on my birthday, you left on your birthday, you didn’t go to my show or even buy a ticket for the upcoming ones.” Nissy cried arms flailing. Naoya grabbed them to keep him from hitting himself or Naoya and pulled the boy against him. He shushed Nissy as the sobs increased at the contact, he thought about it while Nissy clung to him. Though he had been gone a ton lately, why was Nissy so upset over this? Normally he’d bring it up casually, and Naoya took him out for his birthday the next week. Each step farther into the conversation lead him to another clue, slowly piecing it together. He almost solved it, he just needed to push a little more.
“Im sorry Nissy, I am. But I have work you know I do and you know what its like...it doesn’t mean I don’t care about you or anything” Nissy shook his head pushing back from Naoyas chest.
“Its not that”
“What is it then? I want things to be better, I want to see you smile again” Naoya mumbled pulling the smaller man away from his chest more to wipe the tears off Nissy's face.
Brown eyes looked down to meet brown tear filled eyes. Nissy's fingers twitched were they were curled on Naoyas shirt.
And instant to change everything.
Nissy had pulled him down a little more pushing up slightly his lips covered Naoya's.
It took all of 3 seconds for Naoya to respond pushing back into the kiss. The last piece of the puzzle in place he knew his answer. This was what was bothering Nissy. Hidden feelings for the leader, hidden feelings the resurfaced when he finally begun to feel like he wasn’t anything in Naoyas life. When in reality, despite everything. He was Naoya's everything. And it was finally the time to show it.
Nissy pulled away confusion on his face, like he didn’t get why Naoya responded. Like he almost expected Naoya to yell at him, or turn him down. In return Naoya just laughed, making the boy even more confused and somewhat scared looking.
“You know” Naoya whispered leaning next to his ear “You could of just told me.”
Nissy broke out into tears again wrapping his arms around the larger mans neck, a quicker, but softer and intimate kiss and buried his head between Naoyas neck and shoulder. They sat for who cares how long clinging to each other in the silence before Naoya finally moved. Nissy looked dazed falling into sleep. Naoya smiled, things were being repaired.
“Come on” he whispered “Lets go to bed” Nissy didn’t argue when Naoya lifted him carrying him to the bedroom. It took just laying down in the bed on top of Naoya covered in blankets to warm his still somewhat frozen body, and Nissy fell asleep. Before turning the alarm on and the light off to go to bed himself. Naoya sent a quick text to the rest of the band, telling them Nissy came home so they wouldn’t worry in the morning.
Laying there lights off in his small apartment the Christmas lights from other homes reflecting into the room onto the pale sleeping face of the small man laying on him.
And he smiled.
The cut name has nothing to do with anything.
Once again sorry for english and spelling mistakes. I learn ;w;
ILUALLBYE
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