it's december
another year almost gone. i've got to step up my diet - can't EVER eat things that i'll probably get "sick" of, at least not until i'm out of this house. my body/mind clearly can't handle both the mental stress of this place and eating even very slightly processed food, and now because i ate some i basically went sleep deprived for almost a week, showed up to class all 3 days in the week with no sleep, made tons of mistakes and pissed off a classmate really badly, and generally FEEL MENTALLY LIKE SHIT. have to stop going "it's probably ok", and start going "i never want to feel sad/upset/angry ever again in my life".
i don't think i can make any other new year's resolutions. i want to do so much but all my plans fail because my mental (or monetary) state is so bad...