wtf
A few rather large yet undramatic events having occured:
I have decided not to study abroad. Part of me hates myself for not going, another part feels relieved. I suppose what made the decision in the end was that it was the last day I could hand in my acceptance, and I didn't know if I really really wanted to or not. I wish I knew what it was that made me feel uncertain, but I still can't put my finger on it. I did want to, I still do, but not being positive to me means that I shouldn't go. Getting the fuck out of here and away from some people are not the right reasons to do it...homebody that I am I haven't really been anywhere and I don't think disappearing to England to try and do that is the wisest step...too big? Going over there, working, and then finding out I don't like it is not worth an entire semester of college and the massive amounts of money... Ofcourse now that I've e-mailed the study abroad office and told them I'm not going I feel like I've made a huge mistake... I really just hate myself because it feels like I started somethinf and I didn't finish it. I feel like I pussied out or something. I feel really disappointed in myself and it hurts a lot.
On the brighter side of things: Sean is going to be an uncle...more specifically he's going to be Uncle Toby. I have heard mention of Auntie Rinrin a few times...and I find it scary. The family is all really happy for Erin though- which is awesome. Me? I'm just really psyhed that I get to start calling Mr. and Mrs. Mulcahy grandma and grandpa becauase it's funny. Due any day now...so whether or not people are ready for the bundle of joy- he's coming...Very cool.
Been spending a lot of time at home...gee, haven't noticed. Enough to be constantly annoyed by my mother... as if this is a new phenomenon.
I am going to Washington DC this weekend to visit Rob and Angela. That should be fun. Post that I'm meeting up with a group of kids from Clark to hear oral arguments at the Supreme Court and have meetings with a(the?) judiciary committee in the Thurgood Marshall building or some such. I'm really looking forward to it. This is also a momentous occasion as this will be my first time on a plane since I was in first grade going to Disney. I'm scared if only because of how badly my ears hurt on the flights there and back....I don't like my ears to hurt. However! I do have a window seat- so that's cool. I'm leaving on Saturday and coming back late on Monday night.
And as of running out of new and esciting things happening in life...I stop writing.
Thank you for your time and patience.
I have decided not to study abroad. Part of me hates myself for not going, another part feels relieved. I suppose what made the decision in the end was that it was the last day I could hand in my acceptance, and I didn't know if I really really wanted to or not. I wish I knew what it was that made me feel uncertain, but I still can't put my finger on it. I did want to, I still do, but not being positive to me means that I shouldn't go. Getting the fuck out of here and away from some people are not the right reasons to do it...homebody that I am I haven't really been anywhere and I don't think disappearing to England to try and do that is the wisest step...too big? Going over there, working, and then finding out I don't like it is not worth an entire semester of college and the massive amounts of money... Ofcourse now that I've e-mailed the study abroad office and told them I'm not going I feel like I've made a huge mistake... I really just hate myself because it feels like I started somethinf and I didn't finish it. I feel like I pussied out or something. I feel really disappointed in myself and it hurts a lot.
On the brighter side of things: Sean is going to be an uncle...more specifically he's going to be Uncle Toby. I have heard mention of Auntie Rinrin a few times...and I find it scary. The family is all really happy for Erin though- which is awesome. Me? I'm just really psyhed that I get to start calling Mr. and Mrs. Mulcahy grandma and grandpa becauase it's funny. Due any day now...so whether or not people are ready for the bundle of joy- he's coming...Very cool.
Been spending a lot of time at home...gee, haven't noticed. Enough to be constantly annoyed by my mother... as if this is a new phenomenon.
I am going to Washington DC this weekend to visit Rob and Angela. That should be fun. Post that I'm meeting up with a group of kids from Clark to hear oral arguments at the Supreme Court and have meetings with a(the?) judiciary committee in the Thurgood Marshall building or some such. I'm really looking forward to it. This is also a momentous occasion as this will be my first time on a plane since I was in first grade going to Disney. I'm scared if only because of how badly my ears hurt on the flights there and back....I don't like my ears to hurt. However! I do have a window seat- so that's cool. I'm leaving on Saturday and coming back late on Monday night.
And as of running out of new and esciting things happening in life...I stop writing.
Thank you for your time and patience.