The worst feeling...
There is definately other things that feel worse than disappointment...but not much. It breaks me to know that some one I care deeply about is disappointed in me or my actions. In the past week, especially the last hour...I've just become more familiar with feeling ot towards another than I really ever wanted to. Who ever wants to feel disappointed about some one they love? I mean, I wish I could just be angry, it's so much fucking easier...BUT NO. Do I really just think too much of people? Am I holding on to images I have of people that just aren't what they truly are and this shit I am whitnessing is in fact it? Is a promise NOT A FUCKING PROMISE OR HAVE I MISSED SOMETHING?!?! What a fuckin mistake- I've apparently made a huge one in thinking some people would grow a fucking spine or assuming that others would keep the ones I have grown to appreciate.