Fanfic: Need (A Hundred Times More Remix)

[rinalin]

Title: Need (A Hundred Times More Remix)
Author: Rinny
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: Jayne/crew
Rating: R
Word count: 509
Notes: Remix of A Hundred Times More by 

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[aliaspiral]

*tilts head thoughtfully*

River knows. River knows, and pretends she doesn't, because it would all come out in a jumble anyway and someone would get hurt.

Maybe it would be Kaylee, who wants someone who wants her. And he wants her - all smile and shine just for him. Kaylee cries when she's hurt, and nobody likes the sunshine to turn to rain.

It might be Inara, who should see, but doesn't. She turns plastic eyes onto him, who sees what she needs, but she doesn't really see. He takes care of her porcelain habits and knows she might break under him.

Zoe and Wash could be hurt, possibly, as no one else would understand their actions reactions. Both know of one, but not the others. He makes her laugh, and she makes him come, and he can take orders and insults in equal measure without failing to measure up.

Won't be Simon, who isn't involved with his internal organs. He understands chemical releases and body functions but not the attraction of mussing up perfectly made hair and seeing someone too young with too much on his shoulders actually sleep the sleep of the unburdened.

No one would believe it of Book, but he would be shamed. Urges should be given up to someone better able to handle them, and the preacher doesn't understand that is what he has done. It's a honor, but it wouldn't be acceptable in the eyes of Book's imaginary friend.

It wouldn't be Mal. Mal would hurt his soldier, first, calling names and never thinking that it's the captain's duty to understand the why. The captain gives orders, and then gives more, and they don't add up and soldier boys aren't made of metal and tin.

Can't be River. She flows and twists, and wouldn't be hurt if it came out. She turns herself to be someone else, all of else, but he sees past to the girl underneath. He teaches, patience in his hands on hers as she moves for the first times. He is slow and steady and strong for her, and she wishes she could tell him that she is a gazelle, while he is a tortoise inside her.

Would be Jayne who hurt though, if they all knew what they know. Accusations and lies and unprovable physics - a cat that might be in a box. And he would be the cat, and he would be dead if the box was opened. Or not. But she won't be the one to open the box, so he is always alive and dead at the same time. River sees what happens, and the ways and whys of his body count.

She pretends she doesn't, and he smiles against her thigh.

[rinalin]

*big eyes*

That kind of made me choked up and... wow.

I considered writing a recollection of it all through River's eyes and I just cannot handle her voice the way you do.

It's perfect and confusing and so very.... Jayne through River's eyes. Honest. Sad. True.

[aliaspiral]

awww! i didnt mean to choke you up! *snuggles*

I figure River is the only one who is capable of seeing AND accepting the whole thing. But, of course, it comes through the River filter, so its a little sideways.

and thank you.

and i maintain this is a perfectly legitimate remix of something you wrote. call it a remix of a remix. and title it, would you? i got nothing.

[rinalin]

'Tisn't my official remix, is it?

Hmmm. I suck at titles you know.

Outside The Box?

Outside In?

Really. I suck.

[aliaspiral]

'Tisn't, no. havent decided on official, yet.

and i loathe titles. why must things have titles? although, this will be called This Land if i keep thinking about it. Also, it must be tweaked. any suggestions?

and if you're bored, please continue to pick other things to remix. that's half the fun of doing it this way.

[rinalin]

What bout something along the lines of.... Breaking

Because there's the whole concept of Jayne being hurt...

[aliaspiral]

eh. im tweaking. something will come to me. *handwavy* its a River fic, so i tend to go with more bizarre titles with River fic. more fun that way.

[rinalin]

Cause you're wonderfully brilliant. Is why.

[aliaspiral]

*snort*

[eustacia_vye28]

Why don't we just call it "Cat in the Box" or some other vague reference for Schrodinger? Since you reference the cat toward the end.

Why does this remixed remix make me sadder than the other ones? It almost feels like the secrets they keep are also keeping them from being happy.

*glomps crew*

[aliaspiral]

Because Im pouty and annoying and its not working for me?

And because this thing has to be cleaned up first, and its possible the entire Schroedinger ref will wander off. Because im insane.

[eustacia_vye28]

well, the entire original story was full of cracked-out-ness.

*pushes your face into a smile* There. All better. :D

If the reference falls out, the title referring to a cat will be tangential and psychotic. So it may fit anywho. :P

[aliaspiral]

Im thinking it should be "Abort Once Around," which no one but me will understand, probably. but it works the best for what i was thinking. Or possibly, "To Be Simple." See i like it when the titles only make sense to ME.

also? are you sure you want to have a baby? I have one i can lend you for a while - free of charge!

[eustacia_vye28]

ah... in that case, either of those titles would work. I don't see how they follow from the ficlet. :)

and we were pretty sure when we started. While the lending of Lord Voldemort might be free, the shipping would be terribly expensive, even for freight. ;)

[rinalin]

*giggle*

And isn't this technically remixing yourself?

[bugchicklv]

*flail*

OMG the Book one BREAKS ME it's so perfect. That was (partially) how I was going to bridge the gap between his baser instincts and call to God--that, unlike the rest of the crew, he had no confessor, no one to lay his burdens on...and somehow Jayne filled that role for him one night.

You guys are KILLING me here.

(Can I play with the Simon POV for this?)