Exceedingly personal post...
So, if some of you will think back to last summer, I took that inane online chemistry class?
All of this in order to apply to the Physcian Assistant Program at the University of Washington, which is also one of the factors in my decision to move to Seattle.
And then, you know, crap happened. I had to move twice more. Started the new job, got roommates and gained another 40 lbs.
Well, we started talking about the PA program again here at work. And a lightning bolt hit me and I went back and did some research. This is the last year that I can apply without a Bachelors degree. So I MUST apply by September the first.
Since my decision to do this, I've had some waffling over whether or no this is what I want to do. It's a huge financial and really... a lifetime commitment. At what point do you decide "Okay...this IS what I want to do with the rest of my life."
Not to mention... it's hard work. I'd be performing the functions of a physician, under the direct supervision of an MD.
Do I really want to deal with sick people all my life? No.
Do I really want to help others? Yes. Because we only have one life and what good is it without kindness?
Do I really want to work hard? Honestly, no. Not really. I want a cushy life.
What really appeals to me is traveling outside the US and helping in underprivledged areas. I don't care for the politics. I don't care for people who whine and bemoan and wont help care for themselves. Would I even be in a position where I could do this?
And if I bypass this program? If I say screw it... what DO I want to do?
God forbid, I do apply, and get rejected (80% of applicants do) what then?
Okay...ending this rambling panic attack. All is good. Really.
All of this in order to apply to the Physcian Assistant Program at the University of Washington, which is also one of the factors in my decision to move to Seattle.
And then, you know, crap happened. I had to move twice more. Started the new job, got roommates and gained another 40 lbs.
Well, we started talking about the PA program again here at work. And a lightning bolt hit me and I went back and did some research. This is the last year that I can apply without a Bachelors degree. So I MUST apply by September the first.
Since my decision to do this, I've had some waffling over whether or no this is what I want to do. It's a huge financial and really... a lifetime commitment. At what point do you decide "Okay...this IS what I want to do with the rest of my life."
Not to mention... it's hard work. I'd be performing the functions of a physician, under the direct supervision of an MD.
Do I really want to deal with sick people all my life? No.
Do I really want to help others? Yes. Because we only have one life and what good is it without kindness?
Do I really want to work hard? Honestly, no. Not really. I want a cushy life.
What really appeals to me is traveling outside the US and helping in underprivledged areas. I don't care for the politics. I don't care for people who whine and bemoan and wont help care for themselves. Would I even be in a position where I could do this?
And if I bypass this program? If I say screw it... what DO I want to do?
God forbid, I do apply, and get rejected (80% of applicants do) what then?
Okay...ending this rambling panic attack. All is good. Really.