My AMAZING Convo... Read If Ya Care?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Uhm I want to leave a message, hope it doesn't bother you, just checking on you, and how are you doing and stuff....feeling better? did you visit the doctor? kthx. Love you~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Aww thank you sweetie <3 D: I'm.. a tad better ~_~
*And how are you today?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Uhm...no idea, but it's not great, but it's not really horrible as before...?~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*D: Wha happened?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Nothing, getting better I guess?..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well that's good to hear then
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*yea probably..
*Oh well just out of curiousity~ what's the meaning of your PM?~ It made me feel some sort of knife like feeling in my chest.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No no... I just... realized something talking to sis there...
*there was an incident during the summer... and, I've tried, but...
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*No no I meant the "No feelings of love" part. It kinda hurt me you know~
*Wanna tell me about it?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No no, I love my friends and family, but, love as in... LOVE for...love love ._. love.... *shot by Gil 50 times*
*Ah, I never told you? The stupid jerk who used me?
*for sis?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Uh....so that counts me in too, so the love you in everyway was a lie?~
*Well go ahead tell me~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No its not Dx
*that's where I get confused now.
*I feel like....
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well feel like?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Tears are stinging my eyes ow..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well if you possess no feeling of love, then how come can you love me? I'm just wondering because it's hurting because you too are confusing me with you...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*love in all ways yes but, I told you, in that way, I really dont know, and I can never, ever maintain a relationship with anyone....
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well and here at this point you're saying never. You can you possibly just don't want to..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No it's never worked out, really.
*But
*since summer, love is... something I dont have, to fall in love, a crush, I havent had one since him..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well so you're giving up?~
*Wait wait wait stop here~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*He was... someone so much to me and... he broke me apart.
*All my relationships have been this way
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Sooooo I'm just as normal as a 'friend' then.
*You can't love a friend in every possible way.
*Because possible ways are so much, you can't just exclude one out because someone broke you apart, Ran, used me for so long, do you think I stopped loving? No, you're just scared of being hurt again the same way you did.
*Well thanks for those VERY encouraging PMs. Thanks alot, for that sweet lie you said, weeks ago, and more over, YESTERDAY. You're really not different from Ran's way of love, she thinks the same like you "love wasn't meant for me" That's why she ends up hurting those who love her most. Sorry for the comparison. But this is just the worse.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I Do NOT lie.
*I told you, Im NOT sure
*about my feelings
*feelings for anyone in that way
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And when did you say that?
*When the shit was done already?
*Do you think I'm feeling ooooh so delighted when I see such fucking retarded PMs? oh yes it's retarded. =.= not meaning any offence but they just ARE.
*You're scared of loving, it's not that 'it's not meant for me' or 'it always crashed down on me' it was just your luck, you can't judge EVERYONE through one experience, because a jerk used you doesn't mean everyone is the same.
*And you picked the wrong person to misjudge around here. What were you thinking when you said such thing? I feel like my feelings been played with, should I be happy? or what? I can't get what's on your mind anymore.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Im not judging anyone. Maha. I already told you, I WAS NOT SURE about the love love feeling. Everyone knows, I never am sure, or even know about it. I already told you, I don't wanna put your hopes up high, and I dun mean to
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well sadly, you told me this too late, if you weren't sure you shouldn't have said it.
*Did you ever stop to think ONCE what would happen if you weren't sure? If you didn't really love me in everyway?
*Wouldn't you regret what you said? Did you ever think of the consequences? You didn't get to know me too well to know that sadly those I have almost 'love' affairs with just are not the same anymore. I doubt you wanted that.
*Or did you?
*I personally don't want it. But if that's the case, then I can see what I spent few weeks ago, to get maybe a hope of being loved the same way would be shattered. THEN don't think I'm forcing you. No, I'm giving you, some sort of an advise maybe you should realize the mistake you did, so you don't go on breaking other people's hearts.
*Anyway I know it's over already. So yea, next time girl, think twice, trice, and MANY MANY times, consider others feelings before speaking about 'love'. Because you might meet in the future someone as fargile as I am, and you'd end up hurting eachother so yea.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*You are my friend. There is nothing wrong with loving someone in more than one way
*and I would.. admit this
*I did feel a feeling of that towards you
*I admit that, but then thats when i got confused
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well it died? Sometimes it's just a crush.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*cos I've never liked a girl before.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*So I heard.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*And that got in the way, and I decided to brush it off. And I thought its just cos we're close
*and I wanted to be there to support you, help you
*I wanted to give you a hapiness again
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Maybe I'm scaring you, like I scared Ran, like I said before, no one will be like my first relationship.
*No sadly it was more like the opposite...friends do make me happy, a partner would make me much beyond happy, yet I need someone honest with their feelings sure of them
*I remember I told her "If you're sure, then let me tell you this, there's no turning back again." most people would be scared of such statement, yet she without hesitation agreed. Well.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I wouldnt be
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Guess you were just a too good to be true part of my life..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*if I were sure of my feelings Id go with it
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But you weren't sure, so I believe you would have hesitated.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Yea
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But I kinda trusted your words so I didn't say that..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I just hope you do find the person you're supposed to be with
*I want you to be happy,
*sometimes
*I sacrifice myself to make my friends happy
*I noticed that about me.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Nah it's alright, I don't want a person anymore they end up hurting me, so I lets say stopped believing, I'm not running away just stopped believing.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Same here then
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*You don't need to sacrifice yourself for me. *shrugs* I don't deserve it.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
**sighs*
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*You can cut the contact with me if you don't feel comfortable, I don't mind..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I won't.
*I'll be here for when you need me.
*I told you
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well then expect more fevers really...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I'll always be here for you if you need help. So I'll keep my word.
*Aha... no, that's also cos I gots swwiinnee
*I think..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Oh well...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Yup.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Yup?
*Hmmm I wonder I glanced at your PM again.
*"Sis knows why." So you were just saying it swine while it's me?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No o_o
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well really I don't mind if you cut contact, it doesn't seem to matter now anymore
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I've been sick since, before September
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*I hate that sis of yours btw too >.> Yea. *shrugs*
*anyway
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*you do? D:
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*oh yes I do.
*everything you're like "sis did" "sis is" or w.e.
*It's annoying.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well, shes my twin so..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*I don't know what is annoying about it, her or you talking about her all time. But it doesn't matter anymore, it USED to.
*But you know what, I don't care, no I don't even give a damn.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well, I don't see anything wrong talking about my Sis, she's like... my twin, and we do almost anything n everything together as much as we can seeing how far apart we are
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Oh yea like your twin, and when you said you loved me you mentioned me only once.
*That's another thing that hurt me you know.
*Just telling you, because you might be pissing other poor people off with it too.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well no offence but good for them. Sorry but shes my family.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Haha alright just mentioning it, like I said I don't give a damn anymore :)
*And you can go ahead block me if you want to, because actually I'm not in any mood for that. It won't matter because all you said were just lies, in my eyes at least.
*Thanks for the big lie. ^^
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I don't tell lies. You'll not understand the deep connection I was talking about, that connection, it felt like I knew you from somewhere before, and you were close to me.
*but you know, with how your attitude is right now
*I understand why your first said what she said.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well yea I felt that too. Felt it before it started falling on my head, before you started to decide to keep a distance.
*And it just faded away somehow...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Because of you. Maha, maybe I came back into your life, to try to make you see someting
*make you understand
*Loving, ffalling in love, isnt everything, and its not what should make you happy
*Ran
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And what would that something be?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*thats how she was able to do that to you
*And you have to
*love yourself more
*appreciate yourself
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Really, I was happy before even you said you love me, we had fun didn't we?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*find YOURSELF. not rely on others
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*We laughed, that didn't mean I wasn't happy or I was forcing it out.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*When I say I love you, I say that to all my friends, cos they're dear to me
*I felt how you felt towards me, and I got confused
*mixed it with my own feelings
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And no I wasn't crushing on you so I'd make you laugh or something it's because it's me, that's how I act, this is how I have fun.
*Well you should have said "I love you like...a friend/sister" etc.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I know
*I told you
*all ways, because, its hard for me to explain
*it really is.
*If I could put words I would.
*But I can pick up vibes as I told you
*so if someone feels one way to me, I return it
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But really what you did was just made it worse, now it's going to take me all the time I stayed away from Ran to recover again, and saying 'you should find yourself again' isn't something I'd do in one night.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*but then after a while I hold back - hence those times I dun come on the net
*Yes but I want you
*within that time
*to find YOURSELF, love yourself, trust yourself
*and stop relying on others
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But within that time all you'd mention is 'sis' and sis honestly ticks me off and what ticks me off doesn't help me, I might end up going nuts on her. And then you'd hate me.
*Just like Ran did, history is nearly repeating itself, put your 'sis' as Jay dude and put yourself in Ran's place, and me is me.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Do not compare me with her, please.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*What crumbled the whole thing even worse because I refused to lose the place I hardly earned for some loser.
*I'm not comparing
*I said in her place.
*doesn't mean I'm comparing it's just a mere example.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*But another thing, wishing for someones downfall aka Rans, is... not a good thing. Revenge ruins a person
*ok
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And then she was like, arguing with me about it night and day
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*srsly?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*then bam fight, then everything goes okay, in like an hour.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*wow
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*then BAM fight again
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Ok
*nooffence thats messed
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*then get well again. and on and on and on.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*she had mood swings
*with me
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*had? She always does.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*shed be like all lovey on me, and then go emo
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*I know, i've suffered that for months.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*it got annoying
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And I had to be the one who gets all the crap on my head.
*I had to be there to calm her down, it goes okay then it comes back.
*Sometimes it felt frustrating. But I kinda never gave up because I thought it's good to be needed by someone.
*But no I wasn't 'needed' I was just her 'pain killer' so yea, one of the things she used me in was that.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well
*you in a way allowed it
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well it went out of subject.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*you have to be in tune with yourself.
*Thats all I have to say
*and will say
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*So here's my point in getting this subject in.
*I'm a VERY and easily provoked person, provoked can be in many means, I get easily jealous even if it's over a friend. Because I just really like them.
*So yea, when I see that person 'provoking' me intentionally or unintentionally I feel hurt.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Ah. I see.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Childish or not this is how I see it, call it selfish but I believe I told you before about something like that.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*yea
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And yea, I'm much of a drama queen when it comes to these things, I get so emotional about it due to my sensetive personality.
*Sometimes it's bad and sometimes it's good depends on how you look at it, so I won't let down my sensitive part because then that'd leave me just cold with others, and I hate being left alone, also some people rely on me for advise [oh yes the irony, rely on ME for advise, but it works] or just try to comfort them.
*That's all.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Yes, my friends ask me for advice too, but it's nothing that's, irony. I'm just there for them. But then dont give it up
*But give up your negativirty
*negativity*
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Yea, sometimes I just don't know how to advice myself you know. I can advice others but myself.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*well
*learn to advise yourself
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well it depends on how bad the situation is that is.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*and Im not blocking you, just you can message me but, I won't be on much lately.
*True
*but, thats the whole fact
*no matter how bad, you MUST believe in yourself
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Oh well....picked the wrong person, the one who believes in anything but herself, don't ask maybe it's just denial
*Because I won't accept it if someone talked badly about me.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Who talked badly of you?
*You really don't know mine or my Sisters life, she wouldn't tell you, I wouldn't tell you of hers, but she goes through worse, and yet, she is able to feel positive of herself, even though emotionally and physically, she hurts, but she'll genuinly rid the doubt.
*You need to do that too
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*well I know her dad passed away and such stuff, maybe I dunno much
*But one thing I don't like being compared to others, good or bad, that also goes to 'sis' I told you
*I don't really like her.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well, she's my twin and either way, I'll stand up for her if someone talks bad about her. The fact you hate her though, is bewildering and disapointing, but that's as far as I go
*some of her friends hate me too, no prob with that
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Very well I love to respect people's oppinions and I love it when mines are respected too, so don't force her on me, I don't like her, for now at least.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*And I respect that. Just if you talk bad about her I might get mad. Depending on the situation I must know both sides stories first
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Did I talk about her badly now?
*You're misjudging me again or just jumping to conclusions. I said I don't like her, I don't talk badly about the people I don't like.
*Only those who leave serious impression on me, I don't misjudge people, unless they're actually bad originally. So yea.
*don't get the wrong picture because you don't seem to have known me yet.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No I said
*IF you do
*You didn;t read right.
*You're thinking I said that, you were, expecting it almost?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
**shrugs* I don't care really about the IF or NOT IFs because it's not even me to do so. So you don't need to 'warn' or 'threaten' me about it.
*Nah I'm not really bothered, didn't I say before? I used to care alot, but not the same anymore.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well then so be it.
*Up to you now, choose to be friends still or quit it? I'll still be here if you need me as I said.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Just give me time to cool down...
*I can't decide now.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Alright. I understand.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Because I'd pick the wrong one atm, just let me calm down.....
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Very well. I'll be here if you need me. .....*death to go finish my aweful vid I hate so much that is sucks*
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
**sigh* thanks for your understanding...
*I'll head to bed now..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*You're welcome.
*Ah, alright then. Try to get some rest and drink some water, or have a snack. It'll ease the anger, {comfort food~}
*Gnight Maha.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*it's okay, I don't eat when I'm upset it makes me feel like throwing up..
*night..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Night.
*Uhm I want to leave a message, hope it doesn't bother you, just checking on you, and how are you doing and stuff....feeling better? did you visit the doctor? kthx. Love you~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Aww thank you sweetie <3 D: I'm.. a tad better ~_~
*And how are you today?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Uhm...no idea, but it's not great, but it's not really horrible as before...?~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*D: Wha happened?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Nothing, getting better I guess?..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well that's good to hear then
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*yea probably..
*Oh well just out of curiousity~ what's the meaning of your PM?~ It made me feel some sort of knife like feeling in my chest.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No no... I just... realized something talking to sis there...
*there was an incident during the summer... and, I've tried, but...
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*No no I meant the "No feelings of love" part. It kinda hurt me you know~
*Wanna tell me about it?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No no, I love my friends and family, but, love as in... LOVE for...love love ._. love.... *shot by Gil 50 times*
*Ah, I never told you? The stupid jerk who used me?
*for sis?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Uh....so that counts me in too, so the love you in everyway was a lie?~
*Well go ahead tell me~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No its not Dx
*that's where I get confused now.
*I feel like....
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well feel like?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Tears are stinging my eyes ow..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well if you possess no feeling of love, then how come can you love me? I'm just wondering because it's hurting because you too are confusing me with you...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*love in all ways yes but, I told you, in that way, I really dont know, and I can never, ever maintain a relationship with anyone....
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well and here at this point you're saying never. You can you possibly just don't want to..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No it's never worked out, really.
*But
*since summer, love is... something I dont have, to fall in love, a crush, I havent had one since him..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well so you're giving up?~
*Wait wait wait stop here~
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*He was... someone so much to me and... he broke me apart.
*All my relationships have been this way
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Sooooo I'm just as normal as a 'friend' then.
*You can't love a friend in every possible way.
*Because possible ways are so much, you can't just exclude one out because someone broke you apart, Ran, used me for so long, do you think I stopped loving? No, you're just scared of being hurt again the same way you did.
*Well thanks for those VERY encouraging PMs. Thanks alot, for that sweet lie you said, weeks ago, and more over, YESTERDAY. You're really not different from Ran's way of love, she thinks the same like you "love wasn't meant for me" That's why she ends up hurting those who love her most. Sorry for the comparison. But this is just the worse.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I Do NOT lie.
*I told you, Im NOT sure
*about my feelings
*feelings for anyone in that way
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And when did you say that?
*When the shit was done already?
*Do you think I'm feeling ooooh so delighted when I see such fucking retarded PMs? oh yes it's retarded. =.= not meaning any offence but they just ARE.
*You're scared of loving, it's not that 'it's not meant for me' or 'it always crashed down on me' it was just your luck, you can't judge EVERYONE through one experience, because a jerk used you doesn't mean everyone is the same.
*And you picked the wrong person to misjudge around here. What were you thinking when you said such thing? I feel like my feelings been played with, should I be happy? or what? I can't get what's on your mind anymore.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Im not judging anyone. Maha. I already told you, I WAS NOT SURE about the love love feeling. Everyone knows, I never am sure, or even know about it. I already told you, I don't wanna put your hopes up high, and I dun mean to
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well sadly, you told me this too late, if you weren't sure you shouldn't have said it.
*Did you ever stop to think ONCE what would happen if you weren't sure? If you didn't really love me in everyway?
*Wouldn't you regret what you said? Did you ever think of the consequences? You didn't get to know me too well to know that sadly those I have almost 'love' affairs with just are not the same anymore. I doubt you wanted that.
*Or did you?
*I personally don't want it. But if that's the case, then I can see what I spent few weeks ago, to get maybe a hope of being loved the same way would be shattered. THEN don't think I'm forcing you. No, I'm giving you, some sort of an advise maybe you should realize the mistake you did, so you don't go on breaking other people's hearts.
*Anyway I know it's over already. So yea, next time girl, think twice, trice, and MANY MANY times, consider others feelings before speaking about 'love'. Because you might meet in the future someone as fargile as I am, and you'd end up hurting eachother so yea.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*You are my friend. There is nothing wrong with loving someone in more than one way
*and I would.. admit this
*I did feel a feeling of that towards you
*I admit that, but then thats when i got confused
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well it died? Sometimes it's just a crush.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*cos I've never liked a girl before.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*So I heard.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*And that got in the way, and I decided to brush it off. And I thought its just cos we're close
*and I wanted to be there to support you, help you
*I wanted to give you a hapiness again
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Maybe I'm scaring you, like I scared Ran, like I said before, no one will be like my first relationship.
*No sadly it was more like the opposite...friends do make me happy, a partner would make me much beyond happy, yet I need someone honest with their feelings sure of them
*I remember I told her "If you're sure, then let me tell you this, there's no turning back again." most people would be scared of such statement, yet she without hesitation agreed. Well.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I wouldnt be
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Guess you were just a too good to be true part of my life..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*if I were sure of my feelings Id go with it
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But you weren't sure, so I believe you would have hesitated.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Yea
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But I kinda trusted your words so I didn't say that..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I just hope you do find the person you're supposed to be with
*I want you to be happy,
*sometimes
*I sacrifice myself to make my friends happy
*I noticed that about me.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Nah it's alright, I don't want a person anymore they end up hurting me, so I lets say stopped believing, I'm not running away just stopped believing.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Same here then
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*You don't need to sacrifice yourself for me. *shrugs* I don't deserve it.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
**sighs*
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*You can cut the contact with me if you don't feel comfortable, I don't mind..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I won't.
*I'll be here for when you need me.
*I told you
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well then expect more fevers really...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I'll always be here for you if you need help. So I'll keep my word.
*Aha... no, that's also cos I gots swwiinnee
*I think..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Oh well...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Yup.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Yup?
*Hmmm I wonder I glanced at your PM again.
*"Sis knows why." So you were just saying it swine while it's me?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No o_o
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well really I don't mind if you cut contact, it doesn't seem to matter now anymore
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I've been sick since, before September
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*I hate that sis of yours btw too >.> Yea. *shrugs*
*anyway
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*you do? D:
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*oh yes I do.
*everything you're like "sis did" "sis is" or w.e.
*It's annoying.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well, shes my twin so..
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*I don't know what is annoying about it, her or you talking about her all time. But it doesn't matter anymore, it USED to.
*But you know what, I don't care, no I don't even give a damn.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well, I don't see anything wrong talking about my Sis, she's like... my twin, and we do almost anything n everything together as much as we can seeing how far apart we are
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Oh yea like your twin, and when you said you loved me you mentioned me only once.
*That's another thing that hurt me you know.
*Just telling you, because you might be pissing other poor people off with it too.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well no offence but good for them. Sorry but shes my family.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Haha alright just mentioning it, like I said I don't give a damn anymore :)
*And you can go ahead block me if you want to, because actually I'm not in any mood for that. It won't matter because all you said were just lies, in my eyes at least.
*Thanks for the big lie. ^^
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I don't tell lies. You'll not understand the deep connection I was talking about, that connection, it felt like I knew you from somewhere before, and you were close to me.
*but you know, with how your attitude is right now
*I understand why your first said what she said.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well yea I felt that too. Felt it before it started falling on my head, before you started to decide to keep a distance.
*And it just faded away somehow...
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Because of you. Maha, maybe I came back into your life, to try to make you see someting
*make you understand
*Loving, ffalling in love, isnt everything, and its not what should make you happy
*Ran
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And what would that something be?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*thats how she was able to do that to you
*And you have to
*love yourself more
*appreciate yourself
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Really, I was happy before even you said you love me, we had fun didn't we?
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*find YOURSELF. not rely on others
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*We laughed, that didn't mean I wasn't happy or I was forcing it out.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*When I say I love you, I say that to all my friends, cos they're dear to me
*I felt how you felt towards me, and I got confused
*mixed it with my own feelings
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And no I wasn't crushing on you so I'd make you laugh or something it's because it's me, that's how I act, this is how I have fun.
*Well you should have said "I love you like...a friend/sister" etc.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*I know
*I told you
*all ways, because, its hard for me to explain
*it really is.
*If I could put words I would.
*But I can pick up vibes as I told you
*so if someone feels one way to me, I return it
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But really what you did was just made it worse, now it's going to take me all the time I stayed away from Ran to recover again, and saying 'you should find yourself again' isn't something I'd do in one night.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*but then after a while I hold back - hence those times I dun come on the net
*Yes but I want you
*within that time
*to find YOURSELF, love yourself, trust yourself
*and stop relying on others
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*But within that time all you'd mention is 'sis' and sis honestly ticks me off and what ticks me off doesn't help me, I might end up going nuts on her. And then you'd hate me.
*Just like Ran did, history is nearly repeating itself, put your 'sis' as Jay dude and put yourself in Ran's place, and me is me.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Do not compare me with her, please.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*What crumbled the whole thing even worse because I refused to lose the place I hardly earned for some loser.
*I'm not comparing
*I said in her place.
*doesn't mean I'm comparing it's just a mere example.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*But another thing, wishing for someones downfall aka Rans, is... not a good thing. Revenge ruins a person
*ok
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And then she was like, arguing with me about it night and day
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*srsly?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*then bam fight, then everything goes okay, in like an hour.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*wow
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*then BAM fight again
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Ok
*nooffence thats messed
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*then get well again. and on and on and on.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*she had mood swings
*with me
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*had? She always does.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*shed be like all lovey on me, and then go emo
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*I know, i've suffered that for months.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*it got annoying
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And I had to be the one who gets all the crap on my head.
*I had to be there to calm her down, it goes okay then it comes back.
*Sometimes it felt frustrating. But I kinda never gave up because I thought it's good to be needed by someone.
*But no I wasn't 'needed' I was just her 'pain killer' so yea, one of the things she used me in was that.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well
*you in a way allowed it
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well it went out of subject.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*you have to be in tune with yourself.
*Thats all I have to say
*and will say
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*So here's my point in getting this subject in.
*I'm a VERY and easily provoked person, provoked can be in many means, I get easily jealous even if it's over a friend. Because I just really like them.
*So yea, when I see that person 'provoking' me intentionally or unintentionally I feel hurt.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Ah. I see.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Childish or not this is how I see it, call it selfish but I believe I told you before about something like that.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*yea
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*And yea, I'm much of a drama queen when it comes to these things, I get so emotional about it due to my sensetive personality.
*Sometimes it's bad and sometimes it's good depends on how you look at it, so I won't let down my sensitive part because then that'd leave me just cold with others, and I hate being left alone, also some people rely on me for advise [oh yes the irony, rely on ME for advise, but it works] or just try to comfort them.
*That's all.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Yes, my friends ask me for advice too, but it's nothing that's, irony. I'm just there for them. But then dont give it up
*But give up your negativirty
*negativity*
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Yea, sometimes I just don't know how to advice myself you know. I can advice others but myself.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*well
*learn to advise yourself
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Well it depends on how bad the situation is that is.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*and Im not blocking you, just you can message me but, I won't be on much lately.
*True
*but, thats the whole fact
*no matter how bad, you MUST believe in yourself
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Oh well....picked the wrong person, the one who believes in anything but herself, don't ask maybe it's just denial
*Because I won't accept it if someone talked badly about me.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Who talked badly of you?
*You really don't know mine or my Sisters life, she wouldn't tell you, I wouldn't tell you of hers, but she goes through worse, and yet, she is able to feel positive of herself, even though emotionally and physically, she hurts, but she'll genuinly rid the doubt.
*You need to do that too
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*well I know her dad passed away and such stuff, maybe I dunno much
*But one thing I don't like being compared to others, good or bad, that also goes to 'sis' I told you
*I don't really like her.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well, she's my twin and either way, I'll stand up for her if someone talks bad about her. The fact you hate her though, is bewildering and disapointing, but that's as far as I go
*some of her friends hate me too, no prob with that
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Very well I love to respect people's oppinions and I love it when mines are respected too, so don't force her on me, I don't like her, for now at least.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*And I respect that. Just if you talk bad about her I might get mad. Depending on the situation I must know both sides stories first
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Did I talk about her badly now?
*You're misjudging me again or just jumping to conclusions. I said I don't like her, I don't talk badly about the people I don't like.
*Only those who leave serious impression on me, I don't misjudge people, unless they're actually bad originally. So yea.
*don't get the wrong picture because you don't seem to have known me yet.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*No I said
*IF you do
*You didn;t read right.
*You're thinking I said that, you were, expecting it almost?
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
**shrugs* I don't care really about the IF or NOT IFs because it's not even me to do so. So you don't need to 'warn' or 'threaten' me about it.
*Nah I'm not really bothered, didn't I say before? I used to care alot, but not the same anymore.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Well then so be it.
*Up to you now, choose to be friends still or quit it? I'll still be here if you need me as I said.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Just give me time to cool down...
*I can't decide now.
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Alright. I understand.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*Because I'd pick the wrong one atm, just let me calm down.....
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Very well. I'll be here if you need me. .....*death to go finish my aweful vid I hate so much that is sucks*
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
**sigh* thanks for your understanding...
*I'll head to bed now..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*You're welcome.
*Ah, alright then. Try to get some rest and drink some water, or have a snack. It'll ease the anger, {comfort food~}
*Gnight Maha.
Sᴇᴃᴀѕᴛɪᴀɴ Mɪᴄнᴀᴇᴌɪѕ says:
*it's okay, I don't eat when I'm upset it makes me feel like throwing up..
*night..
❖Xɜrxɜs Brɜɑk❖ Kɜviɴ ℛɜgɳɑrɖ ❖ †※†ℓετ mε bε yσuπ ℳӒÐ ℋǍŦŦℰℛ†※† says:
*Night.